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so, in gender class, chris posed a question for us. he described a person that could be excited and aroused by the sight of others(opposite sex if hetero, same if homo), but when the opportunity came for actual contact or a relationship to form this person couldn't function, couldn't handle it, and for some reason or other never made it past that first step with others. chris then asked how many of us felt sorry for this person for not being able to experience a "successful" sexual encounter, and half of us did, including myself.
this person, that doesn't function the way society would consider normal and has to accept and be satisfied with never being able to experience a relationship. this person, is me. and i feel sorry for her. and yet, what can i do? do i break down whatever hinderances i have and take any opportunity that comes my way? do i give up my virginity and stop fantasizing what it would be like to find that perfect(only in my sense of the word) guy that is captivated by me and only wants to love me the rest of his life? or do i wait? wait for someone that i'm comfortable with, wait for someone that doesn't care about what he can't have when he has me. wait until i learn not to freak out. wait till i can be funny and clever without stumbling over my words.
it's what i learned about in tjdm. regret. how much will i actually regret from not making a change in comparison to how much i think i'll regret from that inaction.
help!
this person, that doesn't function the way society would consider normal and has to accept and be satisfied with never being able to experience a relationship. this person, is me. and i feel sorry for her. and yet, what can i do? do i break down whatever hinderances i have and take any opportunity that comes my way? do i give up my virginity and stop fantasizing what it would be like to find that perfect(only in my sense of the word) guy that is captivated by me and only wants to love me the rest of his life? or do i wait? wait for someone that i'm comfortable with, wait for someone that doesn't care about what he can't have when he has me. wait until i learn not to freak out. wait till i can be funny and clever without stumbling over my words.
it's what i learned about in tjdm. regret. how much will i actually regret from not making a change in comparison to how much i think i'll regret from that inaction.
help!