ahh...
i wish i could scream at myself but since i can't (being indoors and all) i will do so here. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you may wonder, why the rage? honestly, i don't know. there's something that happens to me when i start to feel stupid and childish and desperate. i get mad at myself. i feel powerless to change my ways and stuck exactly where i am.
if anyone understands (which i doubt) please tell me.
where is this coming from? let's just say i want something to happen so badly that the simple fact that it hasn't pisses me off.
ok, enough ranting. i need to drown myself in meaningless/frustrating/boring homework and forget about myself for a while.
you may wonder, why the rage? honestly, i don't know. there's something that happens to me when i start to feel stupid and childish and desperate. i get mad at myself. i feel powerless to change my ways and stuck exactly where i am.
if anyone understands (which i doubt) please tell me.
where is this coming from? let's just say i want something to happen so badly that the simple fact that it hasn't pisses me off.
ok, enough ranting. i need to drown myself in meaningless/frustrating/boring homework and forget about myself for a while.