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I'm not really keeping track of the days anymore
I started to quit smoking...what was it...last Sunday. I don't mean the one that just passed either, but before that. I've had about two cigarettes since then, although...just writing about it makes it more difficult. So there it is.
Dan is on a mission to get a job as a server. I think I might do the same thing at one of the local restaurants in town that my neighbor works at. I'm sure that all of the restaurants will be hiring soon for the ski season rush. Dan was turned down to work at Loveland this year as a snowboard instructor. It's rather fuckt up seeing as though they promised him a job last year after he had his injury and was no longer able to work. I think it is because they put him in relation to me...and I do not shine in good light with the management of the ski school I assume. Although they just have sticks up their asses. It's very unlike working at Santa Fe and it almost makes me wish we still worked there. But I just love Colorado in the summertime.
It's funny but I am not nearly as excited for the snowboarding this year. I should be, but it almost seems like I am less excited about pretty much everything. Halloween is coming up in what...one week? I do not have a costume, nor even an idea, nor plans!! I am guessing we will go to a party with our neighbors because these raves in Denver are just so tired and I cannot afford to go to them really. Dan is on this track of cleansing his mind in so that his body will follow. He wants to take control of all desire. The idea of this scares me, but I also am glad that he will be more determined to get things done rather than partying.
His brother has been coming up on the weekends because he is having problems with addiction. Dan wants to get him away from Denver and into the woods so that he won't be doing drugs. I just don't think I can take much more of Dan's brother using up our space as well as Dan's friend who has moved in. I just need privacy and space and some time with my boyfriend. I guess it would not be so bad, but I work all week so when the weekend comes I would like to have time with my boyfriend and go do things...but of course his brother is around and Lucas is around and both of them must be entertained and SO DO I.
I am just being whiney, and I do surely need some food right now.
I hope this day goes quickly, but I have a feeling that it's just sitting here making money already spent. I need to get a haircut, a style. It's been since April and it always feels so fresh to have a new haircut.
The cold has come and with it the first heavy winds and snowfalls.
I started to quit smoking...what was it...last Sunday. I don't mean the one that just passed either, but before that. I've had about two cigarettes since then, although...just writing about it makes it more difficult. So there it is.
Dan is on a mission to get a job as a server. I think I might do the same thing at one of the local restaurants in town that my neighbor works at. I'm sure that all of the restaurants will be hiring soon for the ski season rush. Dan was turned down to work at Loveland this year as a snowboard instructor. It's rather fuckt up seeing as though they promised him a job last year after he had his injury and was no longer able to work. I think it is because they put him in relation to me...and I do not shine in good light with the management of the ski school I assume. Although they just have sticks up their asses. It's very unlike working at Santa Fe and it almost makes me wish we still worked there. But I just love Colorado in the summertime.
It's funny but I am not nearly as excited for the snowboarding this year. I should be, but it almost seems like I am less excited about pretty much everything. Halloween is coming up in what...one week? I do not have a costume, nor even an idea, nor plans!! I am guessing we will go to a party with our neighbors because these raves in Denver are just so tired and I cannot afford to go to them really. Dan is on this track of cleansing his mind in so that his body will follow. He wants to take control of all desire. The idea of this scares me, but I also am glad that he will be more determined to get things done rather than partying.
His brother has been coming up on the weekends because he is having problems with addiction. Dan wants to get him away from Denver and into the woods so that he won't be doing drugs. I just don't think I can take much more of Dan's brother using up our space as well as Dan's friend who has moved in. I just need privacy and space and some time with my boyfriend. I guess it would not be so bad, but I work all week so when the weekend comes I would like to have time with my boyfriend and go do things...but of course his brother is around and Lucas is around and both of them must be entertained and SO DO I.
I am just being whiney, and I do surely need some food right now.
I hope this day goes quickly, but I have a feeling that it's just sitting here making money already spent. I need to get a haircut, a style. It's been since April and it always feels so fresh to have a new haircut.
The cold has come and with it the first heavy winds and snowfalls.