A Depressing Weekend
So you can probably guess why I am upset this weekend... Scotty is at his moms. It is really boring when he is there. Oh well whatever. I know he loves his mom, I am glad he does, but I hurt when he's gone. But it doesn't matter.
I don't feel good, but I can't complain about that to Scotty anymore because I am always like sick now and he is starting to say "Well it's because of your diet" it made me mad when he said that because my mom has told me that for 12 years now almost 13 and it gets a little lame ya know?
A car almost hit me when I was walking downtown tonight, totally not my fault. It was my turn to walk across the street and they didn't see the red light apparently so they kept driving and if I had not checked for them, they would have hit me. Suckers
My next days off are Thursday and Friday. woohoo
Scotty and I almost broke up Thursday. We were arguing and calling each other names and I called him "dick" then he called me a "bitch" and I said "Fine I don't want to go out with you anymore and I mean it" then I walked outside then I heard the other door shut so I walked back inside and I was going to drive and pick him up but I decided against it. The he came in and got on my computer and he was messing with his myspace and I said "oh yea be mature" and then I came back in the room and asked him what he was doing and he said "Deleting my myspace!" and I sat in his lap and said "You deleted all my messages?!" and I started crying then he started crying. and we decided that it wasn't the end. That took at total of about 10 minutes.. then he said "Your messages can always be replaced but you can't and if I can't have you then I don't want the messages" and his myspace didn't get deleted because he didn't get a chance to confirm it in his email. We are only making each other grow apart. It's not going to end up a "happy" ending if this crap keeps up.. ah I don't know what to do :( I love him and no one else but we barely get along. We talked about it tonight and I feel a little better than I have been but I still don't know.
I have not pulled my hair for about 4 or 5 days, so that's going good. My 1st plan when it grows back is to go to a water park. If me and Scotty are together still, I want him to come with me. And then I want him and I to make some friends that are both our friends. That way they wont be fucking cunt lickers and get attitudes with me if I don't spend every waking minute with them.. Fuckers
oh yea maybe when that day comes I should get a cake
fantastic
great.. that day is far away...
Fuck
I don't feel good, but I can't complain about that to Scotty anymore because I am always like sick now and he is starting to say "Well it's because of your diet" it made me mad when he said that because my mom has told me that for 12 years now almost 13 and it gets a little lame ya know?
A car almost hit me when I was walking downtown tonight, totally not my fault. It was my turn to walk across the street and they didn't see the red light apparently so they kept driving and if I had not checked for them, they would have hit me. Suckers
My next days off are Thursday and Friday. woohoo
Scotty and I almost broke up Thursday. We were arguing and calling each other names and I called him "dick" then he called me a "bitch" and I said "Fine I don't want to go out with you anymore and I mean it" then I walked outside then I heard the other door shut so I walked back inside and I was going to drive and pick him up but I decided against it. The he came in and got on my computer and he was messing with his myspace and I said "oh yea be mature" and then I came back in the room and asked him what he was doing and he said "Deleting my myspace!" and I sat in his lap and said "You deleted all my messages?!" and I started crying then he started crying. and we decided that it wasn't the end. That took at total of about 10 minutes.. then he said "Your messages can always be replaced but you can't and if I can't have you then I don't want the messages" and his myspace didn't get deleted because he didn't get a chance to confirm it in his email. We are only making each other grow apart. It's not going to end up a "happy" ending if this crap keeps up.. ah I don't know what to do :( I love him and no one else but we barely get along. We talked about it tonight and I feel a little better than I have been but I still don't know.
I have not pulled my hair for about 4 or 5 days, so that's going good. My 1st plan when it grows back is to go to a water park. If me and Scotty are together still, I want him to come with me. And then I want him and I to make some friends that are both our friends. That way they wont be fucking cunt lickers and get attitudes with me if I don't spend every waking minute with them.. Fuckers
oh yea maybe when that day comes I should get a cake
fantastic
great.. that day is far away...
Fuck