dont cry to me if you love me
I don't even know where to start. I should update every other day like I use to so then I don't have to write extremely long things that no one likes to read. Scotty went to his moms this weekend. I am really bored. And sad. I miss him. I didn't give him a hard time though like I usually do. It was fair because he stayed last weekend since I had the day off. So I really couldn't complain. Right after school yesterday we went to the beach, then downtown and got Dip N Dots but I couldn't get my favorite flavor because they were out of it so I got Bubble Gum and it was kind of gross. I waited all last night for Scotty to call, I couldn't wait to talk to him because I have been missing him. Well it felt like we were on the phone for like 30 minutes. It was longer but it felt short. At least half of the time he was not really talkative because he was tired and he had to get up at 4 so he could work with his mom. Then when we were getting off the phone I was crying but I guess he didn't know that and then when we got off I cried and almost threw up. But I like wanted to cry, even though I was gagging. Then my stomach hurt til I fell asleep. And today he called and we talked but not about much because he was on his mom's cell phone. It upset me last night because I could not wait to talk to him, it was like the highlight of my night but then he is barely talking and doesn't even sound happy. Then he told me today that he didn't even go to bed until 2 or 2:30 and we ended up getting off the phone at like 1. So I guess he really didn't want to talk to me that much. And his mom asked why I don't ever wear my hair down. She asked Scotty. I hate this why does EVERYONE wanna know? It's my hair and it's ugly for certain reasons. Get over it. I have to work today. 2 until 9:30 and I close with Craig. That's the worst person to close with. I think I figured out why I give Scotty such hard times when he goes to his moms. If I don't take it out in an angry attitude, then I am going to cry and be depressed. The majority of people would rather be mad than sad. So I guess I am not such a bitch, I am just trying to help myself from crying and being miserable. Selfish.. I know but not a bitch...