I think it's over for good ='(
i no ya know: hey r u there?
sk8bymonkey: yep
i no ya know: do u hate me now just cause i was a bitch on saturday?
i no ya know: well im guessing not since u unblocked me
sk8bymonkey: no
i no ya know: well i still love u even though u called me a bitch and said some mean things cause most of them u were right about. im sorry and i know u don't accept sorry but i remember me saying to u once "don't ever break up with me promise?" and u said "that's ironclad unless u cheat" i didn't cheat. but anyways i just don't want u to hate me that's all
sk8bymonkey: i just did that because i was pretty mad right then
i no ya know: i know that's why i didn't delete everything out of my profile cause i was hoping maybe u would cool down and we would be together again and that's why when i saw u online which made me know u unblocked me i think i almost pissed in my pants out of excitement me and kristi are friends again
sk8bymonkey: i dont we r just to different
i no ya know: o u don't want us together?
sk8bymonkey: hi
i no ya know: so ur saying u don't want us to be together?
i no ya know: my internet messed up
sk8bymonkey: i didnt say that i am just saying that we r too different from each other and it was hard to find times that we could see each other and we had a schedule worked out i was giving u every bit of time i had to the extent that i had about four to five friends that i saw daily and i havnt been skateboarding for over three months im sorry to say all of this but it is true
i no ya know: i know u were giving me all of ur attention i was being selfish at the time. i have actually told people how u had changed so much like more caring towards me and stuff, i said that stuff while we were going out. you haven't been to the skatepark cause u moved, yes i admit when u would go and tell me i would act rude but it was cause i only seem to enjoy myself when i was with u and when i saw u having fun without me being with you it made me kind of jealous. the only thing i can do now is respect that u like to skate and play video games and not say anything when u do what u like to do. i know u brought up all that stuff when u were angry but u know i can't change any of that cause i would, today felt weird being without you and i wanted to find u after guitar and just hug u but i was too afraid u would push me away so i just went about my day
sk8bymonkey: i didnt go that way i got some chips cause i was hungry
i no ya know: i didn't go that way neither cause i though if i did u would say "get away bitch" or something
i no ya know: but i did think about going that way and i wanted to but i figured if u wanted to talk to me or anything then u would talk to me
sk8bymonkey: no
sk8bymonkey: one problem with our schedule was that i never had time to go to my locker and u would get mad at me if u saw me walking with someone and i passed u by accident and i know u dont want to but u still do i know u think it is hard to change about a bunch of stuff but not for everything
sk8bymonkey: is Typically me kristi?
i no ya know: i know it's not hard to change everything, like that's not something hard to change but when u passed me i felt like u weren't looking for me and it made me feel like u didn't care. and actually i was talking to 1 of hannah's friends that's a guy and he said "sometimes u have to let him be with his friends cause it shows u care what he wants and about him" i didn't know that i care about you deffinately and what u want that is why i told people today "if he's happy without me then i don't want him to get back with me and be unhappy"so i do care about u and what u want i just don't know the ways to show it like i should but it's there for u im just crappy at showing it in positive ways
i no ya know: yes that's kristi
sk8bymonkey: ok good
i no ya know: so u changed ur email and stuff?
sk8bymonkey: i need to talk with her i dont think she is gonna answer me
i no ya know: i told her u want to talk to her
sk8bymonkey: yep i told her what i wanted to tell her
i no ya know: what did u tell her?
sk8bymonkey: i just told her that she needed to know i was always joking so she needed to chill and she said that i always told ur friends to go away and i didnt always i did a few times because we wanted to be alone and they would pick on us
i no ya know: oh ok she told me that u were kind of saying sorry to her
sk8bymonkey: i was but im expecting her to say sorry to me and u
i no ya know: she said sorry to me
sk8bymonkey: vivian i am not going to get back together with u YET. but u never know u might find someone better or we might get back together so dont get upset be glad that i am not pushing u away most guys would
i no ya know: i don't want to find someone better i've told u secrets that friends don't even know and i got close to u in a way that im not going to be able to get with someone else and it's killing me that u don't want to get back together and that's ur saying this to me but i can't do anything about it. and u say i twas throwing u away but in the end look who got thrown away
sk8bymonkey: that is not what u told cindi
i no ya know: i said i can't wait forever for u
i no ya know: cause im lonely
sk8bymonkey: u said u wouldnt wait for me and i am not ready for someone new i am obviously more depressed than u i cant stand to think of going out with someone new yet
i no ya know: me neither but u ended it with me i want to be with u byron but u don't want me, i am trying and u are kind of pushing me away.
i no ya know: and if we got back together i think u would do this again. we had a fight... so u ended our relationship, that's what hurts the most is that u can end it so easily like that
sk8bymonkey: i didnt say that im just not ready for another relationship unless it is a friend relationship and i know u think it is stupid but that is how i feel and u know what when we were going out there was a part of me that told me to break up with u saturday night i was going to tell u that i felt something missing and then u fueled that part of me and i now talking about this feel what i was missing i just want friends right now
sk8bymonkey: i wouldnt have but it wasnt the first time u did this to me where u blew up on me online
i no ya know: i said it wouldn't happen again but u don't like me probably cause i told u about my problem and now u found a good reason to end it.. i don't blame u. i mean who could love a freak? i told my mom once no one would love me for it and now i can easily see it i thought u were different but u just ended it in an hour after we were almost at a year
i no ya know: by the time ur ready i might not be here for u and then u might hate me, i want to be with u now but apparently u don't really love me and if just having friends makes u happy then i can't change that
sk8bymonkey: well i also ruined ur life to and my life was the same way i couldnt handle all of the stress and i wont ever get that mad at u if we r friends i will talk to u unlike last time when we broke up
i no ya know: and u said we might get back together. what if i wait for u and u decide u found someone prettier? then what am i suppose to do? feel like crap all over again like i do now?
sk8bymonkey: nobody can be prettier than u if u believe u r pretty
i no ya know: Typicallyme13: hes like saying that he was wanting 2 break up but half he didnt but when u got mad at him is when he decided it was time
i no ya know: i knew it was over my problem it was a mistake to tell you cause if i hadn't then we would probably still be together
i no ya know: and u were like I love you sooooo much and stuff online but inside u wanted to break up with me? i don't understand at all
sk8bymonkey: no that is not what i said i said there is was a little part i feel upset that i broke up with u but now i am planning stuff to do i am not happy without u it is really different than what u think
i no ya know: what do u mean ur planning stuff to do?
sk8bymonkey: like going skatboarding and playing paintball and i know it sounds like im happy im not
i no ya know: well why can't u be with me and do that stuff?
i no ya know: it's not like we hang out all weekend and im taking up ur time or anything
i no ya know: the only time i mostly see u is at school
i no ya know: i swear to u im not going to be able to see u get a new girlfriend one day
sk8bymonkey: because if my full attention wasnt on u u were mad and i have told u about this and it hasnt changed and i got one hour sure but if i didnt have work i was at home till i could get on and i want to be able to do stuff right after school and me not going to my locker i would be late
sk8bymonkey: i know but time heals all and maybe time wont be to long for me and u to be apart
i no ya know: i told u i would try to change all that. i just want to be with u. i don't want all ur attention i want u to have fun in ur life
i no ya know: if we worked out our problems then we could have a stronger relationship
i no ya know: yes i would have to sacrafice but im willing to do that to get us back together
sk8bymonkey: but over the past year you have said that more than once when u relized u were being mean and it was just to stressful for me i am to but my entire normal life was gone
i no ya know: i'll lee u have ur normal life. byron can't u see im willing to do things and not take up ur time like i use to just so i can be with you? can't u see i really care about u?
sk8bymonkey: i gotta go i think itll be ok though i know it will things will go for the better in ur life and u gotta relize things arent so easy like me telling u all of this is killing me to say and u might not believe that but it is true
sk8bymonkey: i know u do as i do for u but throughout the year i dont even care about my own religion any more i used to love learning the bible and i want to be way different and a kind of weird that u deffinately wouldnt like
sk8bymonkey: not gay wierd
i no ya know: ok well i'll let u go but i do love u even though u don't want to be together
i no ya know: i'll give you time that's all i can do
sk8bymonkey: i love u to i hope u will understand what im trying to tell u
i no ya know: but i want to be with u in a bad way and i miss u
i no ya know: i don't but im going to give it time and see if we can get back together
sk8bymonkey: i know but i gotta figure some stuff out about myself to
i no ya know: ok i'll let u do that but i hope it's soon cause i want to be with u again
sk8bymonkey: ok bye viv
i no ya know: bye
sk8bymonkey signed off at 8:32:55 PM.
sk8bymonkey: yep
i no ya know: do u hate me now just cause i was a bitch on saturday?
i no ya know: well im guessing not since u unblocked me
sk8bymonkey: no
i no ya know: well i still love u even though u called me a bitch and said some mean things cause most of them u were right about. im sorry and i know u don't accept sorry but i remember me saying to u once "don't ever break up with me promise?" and u said "that's ironclad unless u cheat" i didn't cheat. but anyways i just don't want u to hate me that's all
sk8bymonkey: i just did that because i was pretty mad right then
i no ya know: i know that's why i didn't delete everything out of my profile cause i was hoping maybe u would cool down and we would be together again and that's why when i saw u online which made me know u unblocked me i think i almost pissed in my pants out of excitement me and kristi are friends again
sk8bymonkey: i dont we r just to different
i no ya know: o u don't want us together?
sk8bymonkey: hi
i no ya know: so ur saying u don't want us to be together?
i no ya know: my internet messed up
sk8bymonkey: i didnt say that i am just saying that we r too different from each other and it was hard to find times that we could see each other and we had a schedule worked out i was giving u every bit of time i had to the extent that i had about four to five friends that i saw daily and i havnt been skateboarding for over three months im sorry to say all of this but it is true
i no ya know: i know u were giving me all of ur attention i was being selfish at the time. i have actually told people how u had changed so much like more caring towards me and stuff, i said that stuff while we were going out. you haven't been to the skatepark cause u moved, yes i admit when u would go and tell me i would act rude but it was cause i only seem to enjoy myself when i was with u and when i saw u having fun without me being with you it made me kind of jealous. the only thing i can do now is respect that u like to skate and play video games and not say anything when u do what u like to do. i know u brought up all that stuff when u were angry but u know i can't change any of that cause i would, today felt weird being without you and i wanted to find u after guitar and just hug u but i was too afraid u would push me away so i just went about my day
sk8bymonkey: i didnt go that way i got some chips cause i was hungry
i no ya know: i didn't go that way neither cause i though if i did u would say "get away bitch" or something
i no ya know: but i did think about going that way and i wanted to but i figured if u wanted to talk to me or anything then u would talk to me
sk8bymonkey: no
sk8bymonkey: one problem with our schedule was that i never had time to go to my locker and u would get mad at me if u saw me walking with someone and i passed u by accident and i know u dont want to but u still do i know u think it is hard to change about a bunch of stuff but not for everything
sk8bymonkey: is Typically me kristi?
i no ya know: i know it's not hard to change everything, like that's not something hard to change but when u passed me i felt like u weren't looking for me and it made me feel like u didn't care. and actually i was talking to 1 of hannah's friends that's a guy and he said "sometimes u have to let him be with his friends cause it shows u care what he wants and about him" i didn't know that i care about you deffinately and what u want that is why i told people today "if he's happy without me then i don't want him to get back with me and be unhappy"so i do care about u and what u want i just don't know the ways to show it like i should but it's there for u im just crappy at showing it in positive ways
i no ya know: yes that's kristi
sk8bymonkey: ok good
i no ya know: so u changed ur email and stuff?
sk8bymonkey: i need to talk with her i dont think she is gonna answer me
i no ya know: i told her u want to talk to her
sk8bymonkey: yep i told her what i wanted to tell her
i no ya know: what did u tell her?
sk8bymonkey: i just told her that she needed to know i was always joking so she needed to chill and she said that i always told ur friends to go away and i didnt always i did a few times because we wanted to be alone and they would pick on us
i no ya know: oh ok she told me that u were kind of saying sorry to her
sk8bymonkey: i was but im expecting her to say sorry to me and u
i no ya know: she said sorry to me
sk8bymonkey: vivian i am not going to get back together with u YET. but u never know u might find someone better or we might get back together so dont get upset be glad that i am not pushing u away most guys would
i no ya know: i don't want to find someone better i've told u secrets that friends don't even know and i got close to u in a way that im not going to be able to get with someone else and it's killing me that u don't want to get back together and that's ur saying this to me but i can't do anything about it. and u say i twas throwing u away but in the end look who got thrown away
sk8bymonkey: that is not what u told cindi
i no ya know: i said i can't wait forever for u
i no ya know: cause im lonely
sk8bymonkey: u said u wouldnt wait for me and i am not ready for someone new i am obviously more depressed than u i cant stand to think of going out with someone new yet
i no ya know: me neither but u ended it with me i want to be with u byron but u don't want me, i am trying and u are kind of pushing me away.
i no ya know: and if we got back together i think u would do this again. we had a fight... so u ended our relationship, that's what hurts the most is that u can end it so easily like that
sk8bymonkey: i didnt say that im just not ready for another relationship unless it is a friend relationship and i know u think it is stupid but that is how i feel and u know what when we were going out there was a part of me that told me to break up with u saturday night i was going to tell u that i felt something missing and then u fueled that part of me and i now talking about this feel what i was missing i just want friends right now
sk8bymonkey: i wouldnt have but it wasnt the first time u did this to me where u blew up on me online
i no ya know: i said it wouldn't happen again but u don't like me probably cause i told u about my problem and now u found a good reason to end it.. i don't blame u. i mean who could love a freak? i told my mom once no one would love me for it and now i can easily see it i thought u were different but u just ended it in an hour after we were almost at a year
i no ya know: by the time ur ready i might not be here for u and then u might hate me, i want to be with u now but apparently u don't really love me and if just having friends makes u happy then i can't change that
sk8bymonkey: well i also ruined ur life to and my life was the same way i couldnt handle all of the stress and i wont ever get that mad at u if we r friends i will talk to u unlike last time when we broke up
i no ya know: and u said we might get back together. what if i wait for u and u decide u found someone prettier? then what am i suppose to do? feel like crap all over again like i do now?
sk8bymonkey: nobody can be prettier than u if u believe u r pretty
i no ya know: Typicallyme13: hes like saying that he was wanting 2 break up but half he didnt but when u got mad at him is when he decided it was time
i no ya know: i knew it was over my problem it was a mistake to tell you cause if i hadn't then we would probably still be together
i no ya know: and u were like I love you sooooo much and stuff online but inside u wanted to break up with me? i don't understand at all
sk8bymonkey: no that is not what i said i said there is was a little part i feel upset that i broke up with u but now i am planning stuff to do i am not happy without u it is really different than what u think
i no ya know: what do u mean ur planning stuff to do?
sk8bymonkey: like going skatboarding and playing paintball and i know it sounds like im happy im not
i no ya know: well why can't u be with me and do that stuff?
i no ya know: it's not like we hang out all weekend and im taking up ur time or anything
i no ya know: the only time i mostly see u is at school
i no ya know: i swear to u im not going to be able to see u get a new girlfriend one day
sk8bymonkey: because if my full attention wasnt on u u were mad and i have told u about this and it hasnt changed and i got one hour sure but if i didnt have work i was at home till i could get on and i want to be able to do stuff right after school and me not going to my locker i would be late
sk8bymonkey: i know but time heals all and maybe time wont be to long for me and u to be apart
i no ya know: i told u i would try to change all that. i just want to be with u. i don't want all ur attention i want u to have fun in ur life
i no ya know: if we worked out our problems then we could have a stronger relationship
i no ya know: yes i would have to sacrafice but im willing to do that to get us back together
sk8bymonkey: but over the past year you have said that more than once when u relized u were being mean and it was just to stressful for me i am to but my entire normal life was gone
i no ya know: i'll lee u have ur normal life. byron can't u see im willing to do things and not take up ur time like i use to just so i can be with you? can't u see i really care about u?
sk8bymonkey: i gotta go i think itll be ok though i know it will things will go for the better in ur life and u gotta relize things arent so easy like me telling u all of this is killing me to say and u might not believe that but it is true
sk8bymonkey: i know u do as i do for u but throughout the year i dont even care about my own religion any more i used to love learning the bible and i want to be way different and a kind of weird that u deffinately wouldnt like
sk8bymonkey: not gay wierd
i no ya know: ok well i'll let u go but i do love u even though u don't want to be together
i no ya know: i'll give you time that's all i can do
sk8bymonkey: i love u to i hope u will understand what im trying to tell u
i no ya know: but i want to be with u in a bad way and i miss u
i no ya know: i don't but im going to give it time and see if we can get back together
sk8bymonkey: i know but i gotta figure some stuff out about myself to
i no ya know: ok i'll let u do that but i hope it's soon cause i want to be with u again
sk8bymonkey: ok bye viv
i no ya know: bye
sk8bymonkey signed off at 8:32:55 PM.