Memorizu
Waaa! Huyuyasumi wa totemo tanoshii desu ne!
(Wow! Winterbreak is so fun!)
I'm writing this out of going-back-to-school anxiety. Today is the last full day before going back to Berkeley. It feels like there are still things to do here. Like unfinished business. I figured that writing a few things out could potentially tie up some loose ends (at least in my mind anyway), so here it goes...
I woke up this morning at 7 am to drop Justin off at school since I need to use the car today. *The joys of sharing* However, there is totally reason to be happy when up at this time in the morning: look up! I don't ever remember admiring the sky so much as when I've been here in San Diego. Maybe it's because there aren't as many big bright lights to distract my gaze, maybe it's because there isn't tons of homework that burden me to look straight ahead to my next destination, but here, in my lil seaside hometown of SD, the sky titillates my senses. lol. If ever I can celebrate the phrase "God is a painter", it's when I look at the colors, shape, (maybe even texture), contrast, and composition of the clouds. The rays of light that seep through the denser cloud patches, like Lion King and what my mom calls "the fingers of God", are beautiful, too. Take note that this is only early morning (lol 7am) when the sun hasn't nearly reached it's full glory.
Anyway, the first song on Justin's psp was Lagwagon's May 16. It really reminded me of Cedric since it's one of the songs that we tried to learn how to play together (although we fail). I wanted to see him again before I went back, but I think he may be returning from bootcamp next weekish (if his time schedule isn't totally thrown off). Que sera sera.
Because of wanting to see him, I was reminded how I've been able to see a lot of people this winter break. The strongest recollection that I have before going to my conference in St. Louis is my Christmas Eve run. I was happy to see everyone, but the conversations that stood out were seeing Sean and Ray. I miss talking to Sean... In the beginning of sophomore year, and you can verify this by asking him yourself, I remember that he was slightly crushing on me (and vice versa). lol only very slightly. He let it go because of the untimelieness (is this is a real word?) of our circumstances (I may elucidate more if you ask me and really want to know), but wouldn't that have been an interesting sidequest in my life. lol. He's well, and I'm glad.
I haven't seen Ray in ages. It was really cool last year being able to talk to him with Kris and Mary Rose with me, but I think it was even cooler just hanging out talking to him by myself. He and his sister were watching Cars, so we were just talking while she was watching the movie. (She said she didn't mind, so it's not that we were being rude). I don't really get the chance to talk to Ray much, but everytime I do I think it's been really nice. Since we have the longest history of knowing each other out of all of my friends...Oh, I remember sitting next to him on the school bus and trying to figure out the Xing sign. I have a few memories of him from childhood, including that he was probably my first crush (lol, again if you want to know more just ask), and all of them are pleasant. He's well, too. I'll miss out on being able to talk to him more at school.
The conference was pretty awesome. Like literally awe-some and slang awesome at the same time. Mind boggling. lol. I met some very cool kids there (and a couple of very sophisticated and lovely ladies/roommates). I sang in Korean and Mandarin for the first time, went to a seminar to get a fresh take on Catholicism, ate soy-corn-sugar stuff that AIDS vicitims in Africa are served for one of my dinners, hung out with some of my very funny, fun and endearing church friends, went to see the not-as-disappointing-as-the-Statue-of-Liberty Gateway Arch, heard some good speakers, went to some intellectually stimulating Bible studies, invited a homeless guy to dinner, and took a picture with a Lewis and Clark (and Seaman, lol) statue near the Mississippi River. Not in chronological order, but fun is as fun does. I probably have to present some of the stuff that I enjoyed at the Urbana conference to my church in Berkeley, so it's a good thing that I wrote some stuff to get my brain juices flowing.
See Part II for continuation
PS Sam knows about all of these childhood/past crushes. lol, it may seem like my recollections are vivid about these other guys, but my memories with Sam are similarly if not more vivid than these. I remember crushing on Sean and Ray after I see them in person, whereas I remember crushing+ on Sam when I see pictures, books, commercials, shoes, video games, random phrases and mannerisms of friends, couples on the street, anything associated to NY, etc. Just imagine what I go through when I see him in person, lol.
(Wow! Winterbreak is so fun!)
I'm writing this out of going-back-to-school anxiety. Today is the last full day before going back to Berkeley. It feels like there are still things to do here. Like unfinished business. I figured that writing a few things out could potentially tie up some loose ends (at least in my mind anyway), so here it goes...
I woke up this morning at 7 am to drop Justin off at school since I need to use the car today. *The joys of sharing* However, there is totally reason to be happy when up at this time in the morning: look up! I don't ever remember admiring the sky so much as when I've been here in San Diego. Maybe it's because there aren't as many big bright lights to distract my gaze, maybe it's because there isn't tons of homework that burden me to look straight ahead to my next destination, but here, in my lil seaside hometown of SD, the sky titillates my senses. lol. If ever I can celebrate the phrase "God is a painter", it's when I look at the colors, shape, (maybe even texture), contrast, and composition of the clouds. The rays of light that seep through the denser cloud patches, like Lion King and what my mom calls "the fingers of God", are beautiful, too. Take note that this is only early morning (lol 7am) when the sun hasn't nearly reached it's full glory.
Anyway, the first song on Justin's psp was Lagwagon's May 16. It really reminded me of Cedric since it's one of the songs that we tried to learn how to play together (although we fail). I wanted to see him again before I went back, but I think he may be returning from bootcamp next weekish (if his time schedule isn't totally thrown off). Que sera sera.
Because of wanting to see him, I was reminded how I've been able to see a lot of people this winter break. The strongest recollection that I have before going to my conference in St. Louis is my Christmas Eve run. I was happy to see everyone, but the conversations that stood out were seeing Sean and Ray. I miss talking to Sean... In the beginning of sophomore year, and you can verify this by asking him yourself, I remember that he was slightly crushing on me (and vice versa). lol only very slightly. He let it go because of the untimelieness (is this is a real word?) of our circumstances (I may elucidate more if you ask me and really want to know), but wouldn't that have been an interesting sidequest in my life. lol. He's well, and I'm glad.
I haven't seen Ray in ages. It was really cool last year being able to talk to him with Kris and Mary Rose with me, but I think it was even cooler just hanging out talking to him by myself. He and his sister were watching Cars, so we were just talking while she was watching the movie. (She said she didn't mind, so it's not that we were being rude). I don't really get the chance to talk to Ray much, but everytime I do I think it's been really nice. Since we have the longest history of knowing each other out of all of my friends...Oh, I remember sitting next to him on the school bus and trying to figure out the Xing sign. I have a few memories of him from childhood, including that he was probably my first crush (lol, again if you want to know more just ask), and all of them are pleasant. He's well, too. I'll miss out on being able to talk to him more at school.
The conference was pretty awesome. Like literally awe-some and slang awesome at the same time. Mind boggling. lol. I met some very cool kids there (and a couple of very sophisticated and lovely ladies/roommates). I sang in Korean and Mandarin for the first time, went to a seminar to get a fresh take on Catholicism, ate soy-corn-sugar stuff that AIDS vicitims in Africa are served for one of my dinners, hung out with some of my very funny, fun and endearing church friends, went to see the not-as-disappointing-as-the-Statue-of-Liberty Gateway Arch, heard some good speakers, went to some intellectually stimulating Bible studies, invited a homeless guy to dinner, and took a picture with a Lewis and Clark (and Seaman, lol) statue near the Mississippi River. Not in chronological order, but fun is as fun does. I probably have to present some of the stuff that I enjoyed at the Urbana conference to my church in Berkeley, so it's a good thing that I wrote some stuff to get my brain juices flowing.
See Part II for continuation
PS Sam knows about all of these childhood/past crushes. lol, it may seem like my recollections are vivid about these other guys, but my memories with Sam are similarly if not more vivid than these. I remember crushing on Sean and Ray after I see them in person, whereas I remember crushing+ on Sam when I see pictures, books, commercials, shoes, video games, random phrases and mannerisms of friends, couples on the street, anything associated to NY, etc. Just imagine what I go through when I see him in person, lol.