...it's good to see me, isn't it?...oh you don't have to answer that, it was rhetorical...
Quote for the day:
"Tyler: They should combine Wicked and The Wild Party and have...The Wicked Party.
Me: That would be wonderful! There would be, like, green hookers!"
~~Sorry if you don't really get the quote...it's a musical theatre reference and if you've never even heard of The Wild Party, don't worry about it! lol Tyler and I just really like it.
I know it's been forever and a day since I updated last. And I would rather not bore you with all the details as to why I've been M.I.A. I'm just busy and don't spend much time on the computer, especially ever since Tyler got the Sims 2 and plays it ALL THE TIME! The only reason I'm on the computer now is because he's not here; he's in Orlando, visiting with his mother...he'll be back later tonight and I'm just entertaining myself...and being spooked every now and then. We watched Swimfan this morning. So, note to self, DON'T watch a creepy movie when you're going to be home by yourself. Every little sound makes me jump and I've checked to make sure the door is locked at least 20 times now. I'm a wow, let me tell you!
Well, I've been piddling around online for a little awhile now and I got bored and read some of my old journal entries from another online journal that I don't write in anymore...and it was really amusing. I laughed several times. So, I thought you guys might enjoy reading a few excerpts from it.
I took my calculus exam today...should've studied more to say the least. But I think I didn't do too badly. That was such a strange way for me to phrase that sentence...hmmm...well anyway, the only other thing I had to do today was my final performance for musical theatre, which was fine. We've rehearsed that song SO many times, that if we didn't get it right then we were seriously retarded. So yeah, no more singing the Tennis Song...I think I could sing it in my sleep, it's so drilled into my head. I'm hoping I'll forget it! lol I like the song, but when you work on a song and you analyze the song and you move to the song...you get tired of it. Plus, acting like I'm seducing my friend is not something I like to make a habit of.
LOL Right Candy...seducing your friend...who is now the person you want to spend the rest of your life with!
I know I need to just get to work but it's all so overwhelming...it's like AP Lit test on Hamlet, AP Lit focus paper on Hamlet, AP Calculus HW and test on stuff I don't understand, musical theatre project, AP Stats project on bivariate data, AM government test for turtle teacher, application and scholarships essays to write, friends depending on me for advice, finishing a few things before I leave yearbook for good, my curse continuing with men, my friends fighting with each other, one week until Devin's birthday party at Disney, and now I'm having nightmares and I'm afraid to sleep! I'M GOING INSANE!!!! Yeah, you know you'd go crazy too with that much to do...don't tell me you wouldn't!
Aww...before I just didn't care anymore! So cute!
Speaking of people NOT on my cloud, I can't believe my mother actually accused me of checking (not mentioning a name) out last night. WHATEVER! He is so out of the picture....he's SO far off my cloud that he's not even in the atmosphere anymore. Ugh, she's insane. And Devin was like, "ooooh shame on you! checking out the ex!". I was totally shocked...I haven't paid an ounce of attention to him in forever. Him and I are so over. He's just another person to me now. ~sigh~ Devin did say later that she didn't think I was looking at him, she just was feeding off what my mom said. My track record with relationships is so screwed up. Let's not even GO there!
I'm STILL not mentioning names!
Anyway, about last night, I went to the drama production of The Effects of Gamma Rays on Man-in-the-Moon Marigolds. It was really good; I enjoyed it. I'm so glad I get to do drama this year since I quit chorus and yearbook. I miss yearbook, but it was killing me. I'm not superwoman, as much as people like to think I am. It's so great to be doing drama, something I enjoy with people I actually like to be around. So yeah, the show was great...I sat with Tyler and Mark which was quite an experience since they argue with each other most of the time, but Tyler was nice enough to take me home afterwards. It was weird not having a football game on a Friday night, but hey, it was still ok.
How weird is that? Talk about having no idea!
So about the reputation statement, that's another big thing I've realized this week. I always want to please everyone and make everyone think I'm perfect, but the fact is, people are going to think what they want anyway and sometimes there's nothing you can do. People can think of 100 reasons not to like you if they set their mind to it, no matter what anyone else says. I don't find any enjoyment out of hurting other people's feelings. What good does that do? I hate to hurt anyone's feelings and I spend the majority of my life cheering people up when other people hurt their feelings. I know I'm a good person, and as long as my good character stays strong, reputation really doesn't make that much difference. Sure, it's nice to know that people aren't saying mean things behind your back...but who's going to stop them? I have more important things to do with my time, like enjoy my true friends.
I write the best things when after I've been full-on stressed out and come out of it a stronger person. I think we all know what this is about.
"You aren't running away from your feelings as fast as you sometimes do. Sure, you'd still rather work this off through more pleasurable means, but the intensity of your feelings will not easily be dispersed. You are taking yourself quite seriously now, and you expect others to do the same. Although your hopes are building for what's just around the corner, you still need to hold back your horses or they will run away from what is most important."
Sorry, but I thought the last part was extremely funny because I never do anything holding back! Telling me that is like telling me to cook something. Pointless! Ok ok, so I thought I'd share.
lol Just amusing.
Ok, I'm done. I promise. For now.
So, I think I'm gonna go watch a movie until Tyler comes home. I miss him and he's only been gone for about 6 hours! It's so pathetic. lol Bye for now everyone and take care!~~
**Candy**
"Tyler: They should combine Wicked and The Wild Party and have...The Wicked Party.
Me: That would be wonderful! There would be, like, green hookers!"
~~Sorry if you don't really get the quote...it's a musical theatre reference and if you've never even heard of The Wild Party, don't worry about it! lol Tyler and I just really like it.
I know it's been forever and a day since I updated last. And I would rather not bore you with all the details as to why I've been M.I.A. I'm just busy and don't spend much time on the computer, especially ever since Tyler got the Sims 2 and plays it ALL THE TIME! The only reason I'm on the computer now is because he's not here; he's in Orlando, visiting with his mother...he'll be back later tonight and I'm just entertaining myself...and being spooked every now and then. We watched Swimfan this morning. So, note to self, DON'T watch a creepy movie when you're going to be home by yourself. Every little sound makes me jump and I've checked to make sure the door is locked at least 20 times now. I'm a wow, let me tell you!
Well, I've been piddling around online for a little awhile now and I got bored and read some of my old journal entries from another online journal that I don't write in anymore...and it was really amusing. I laughed several times. So, I thought you guys might enjoy reading a few excerpts from it.
I took my calculus exam today...should've studied more to say the least. But I think I didn't do too badly. That was such a strange way for me to phrase that sentence...hmmm...well anyway, the only other thing I had to do today was my final performance for musical theatre, which was fine. We've rehearsed that song SO many times, that if we didn't get it right then we were seriously retarded. So yeah, no more singing the Tennis Song...I think I could sing it in my sleep, it's so drilled into my head. I'm hoping I'll forget it! lol I like the song, but when you work on a song and you analyze the song and you move to the song...you get tired of it. Plus, acting like I'm seducing my friend is not something I like to make a habit of.
LOL Right Candy...seducing your friend...who is now the person you want to spend the rest of your life with!
I know I need to just get to work but it's all so overwhelming...it's like AP Lit test on Hamlet, AP Lit focus paper on Hamlet, AP Calculus HW and test on stuff I don't understand, musical theatre project, AP Stats project on bivariate data, AM government test for turtle teacher, application and scholarships essays to write, friends depending on me for advice, finishing a few things before I leave yearbook for good, my curse continuing with men, my friends fighting with each other, one week until Devin's birthday party at Disney, and now I'm having nightmares and I'm afraid to sleep! I'M GOING INSANE!!!! Yeah, you know you'd go crazy too with that much to do...don't tell me you wouldn't!
Aww...before I just didn't care anymore! So cute!
Speaking of people NOT on my cloud, I can't believe my mother actually accused me of checking (not mentioning a name) out last night. WHATEVER! He is so out of the picture....he's SO far off my cloud that he's not even in the atmosphere anymore. Ugh, she's insane. And Devin was like, "ooooh shame on you! checking out the ex!". I was totally shocked...I haven't paid an ounce of attention to him in forever. Him and I are so over. He's just another person to me now. ~sigh~ Devin did say later that she didn't think I was looking at him, she just was feeding off what my mom said. My track record with relationships is so screwed up. Let's not even GO there!
I'm STILL not mentioning names!
Anyway, about last night, I went to the drama production of The Effects of Gamma Rays on Man-in-the-Moon Marigolds. It was really good; I enjoyed it. I'm so glad I get to do drama this year since I quit chorus and yearbook. I miss yearbook, but it was killing me. I'm not superwoman, as much as people like to think I am. It's so great to be doing drama, something I enjoy with people I actually like to be around. So yeah, the show was great...I sat with Tyler and Mark which was quite an experience since they argue with each other most of the time, but Tyler was nice enough to take me home afterwards. It was weird not having a football game on a Friday night, but hey, it was still ok.
How weird is that? Talk about having no idea!
So about the reputation statement, that's another big thing I've realized this week. I always want to please everyone and make everyone think I'm perfect, but the fact is, people are going to think what they want anyway and sometimes there's nothing you can do. People can think of 100 reasons not to like you if they set their mind to it, no matter what anyone else says. I don't find any enjoyment out of hurting other people's feelings. What good does that do? I hate to hurt anyone's feelings and I spend the majority of my life cheering people up when other people hurt their feelings. I know I'm a good person, and as long as my good character stays strong, reputation really doesn't make that much difference. Sure, it's nice to know that people aren't saying mean things behind your back...but who's going to stop them? I have more important things to do with my time, like enjoy my true friends.
I write the best things when after I've been full-on stressed out and come out of it a stronger person. I think we all know what this is about.
"You aren't running away from your feelings as fast as you sometimes do. Sure, you'd still rather work this off through more pleasurable means, but the intensity of your feelings will not easily be dispersed. You are taking yourself quite seriously now, and you expect others to do the same. Although your hopes are building for what's just around the corner, you still need to hold back your horses or they will run away from what is most important."
Sorry, but I thought the last part was extremely funny because I never do anything holding back! Telling me that is like telling me to cook something. Pointless! Ok ok, so I thought I'd share.
lol Just amusing.
Ok, I'm done. I promise. For now.
So, I think I'm gonna go watch a movie until Tyler comes home. I miss him and he's only been gone for about 6 hours! It's so pathetic. lol Bye for now everyone and take care!~~
**Candy**