Too Much for a Handwritten Entry
I won NaNoWriMo, despite being 25,000 words behind at one point. I wrote 26,000 words over the Thanksgiving weekend, including 10k on Sunday. I had some excellent moral support from a beloved member of the writing group, which didn't hurt.
I also got the job. They offered me a 40% raise, cost of living included. I did not negotiate.
I am still waiting on the official offer letter, and getting antsy at the delay of confirmation of my employment.
I gave notice today. My boss didn't seem surprised (probably because she received a call from the background check company), and said many complimentary things. They don't alleviate in any way my dislike, but I feel bad still for leaving. I also dread feeling cut out of things, even though I know it's my own choice. I decided this afternoon, though, that I won't go back...even if my new job falls through. I almost hope it does, because I thought this afternoon about all the other things I want to do.
And I'm irritated that I don't get to tell people why exactly I'm leaving. I want to raze the company with my words, and let them lick at the minds of my coworkers when I am gone. Am I overestimating their power, or my power over my soon-to-be-ex-coworkers? I probably alarmed my best friend at work, but she talked me down (as much if not more so than L) by telling me how I would have no regrets when I was her age from taking the high road. I hope that's the case, but Idk. I will take some solace in her telling me that people are really judged by their actions. I don't know if I 100% believe it, but it makes me feel better about some of the verbal faux pas I have made in her presence recently.
So what did my boss say? That I was an excellent (insert more superlatives here, including 'innate' which doesn't quite make sense--unless she meant that some of my positive qualities were innate?) employee and that she was really invested in keeping me around after our spat in March, as long as I would stay...Is the truth? Does it mean she put up with me because I was so awesome as an employee, even though I'm far too direct for her tastes and I (not-so-subtly) think she's an idiot? I don't know what to think. I don't know how to feel. I will try to just be glad it will be over soon, and I can move on to the next stage of my life.
I also felt guilty after telling my hair stylist, who is cool and also thinks L and I are cool. Enough cool people have said it; it might actually be true. :)
Elsewhere or on the Internet...GDSF (should be a t-shirt slogan)
I have been in a very strange mood tonight, and I am at home by myself for the next several hours. What to do...
I also got the job. They offered me a 40% raise, cost of living included. I did not negotiate.
I am still waiting on the official offer letter, and getting antsy at the delay of confirmation of my employment.
I gave notice today. My boss didn't seem surprised (probably because she received a call from the background check company), and said many complimentary things. They don't alleviate in any way my dislike, but I feel bad still for leaving. I also dread feeling cut out of things, even though I know it's my own choice. I decided this afternoon, though, that I won't go back...even if my new job falls through. I almost hope it does, because I thought this afternoon about all the other things I want to do.
And I'm irritated that I don't get to tell people why exactly I'm leaving. I want to raze the company with my words, and let them lick at the minds of my coworkers when I am gone. Am I overestimating their power, or my power over my soon-to-be-ex-coworkers? I probably alarmed my best friend at work, but she talked me down (as much if not more so than L) by telling me how I would have no regrets when I was her age from taking the high road. I hope that's the case, but Idk. I will take some solace in her telling me that people are really judged by their actions. I don't know if I 100% believe it, but it makes me feel better about some of the verbal faux pas I have made in her presence recently.
So what did my boss say? That I was an excellent (insert more superlatives here, including 'innate' which doesn't quite make sense--unless she meant that some of my positive qualities were innate?) employee and that she was really invested in keeping me around after our spat in March, as long as I would stay...Is the truth? Does it mean she put up with me because I was so awesome as an employee, even though I'm far too direct for her tastes and I (not-so-subtly) think she's an idiot? I don't know what to think. I don't know how to feel. I will try to just be glad it will be over soon, and I can move on to the next stage of my life.
I also felt guilty after telling my hair stylist, who is cool and also thinks L and I are cool. Enough cool people have said it; it might actually be true. :)
Elsewhere or on the Internet...GDSF (should be a t-shirt slogan)
I have been in a very strange mood tonight, and I am at home by myself for the next several hours. What to do...