double you tee eff.
i'm pretty much an easy going, day by day type of gal.
but lately i can't seem to stop thinking about the future. and wondering what's in store.
what am i doing with my life?
seriously.
sure, i'm still young... but i sure aint gettin any younger. i've been telling myself this since i was 18. i thought it was bad then that i didn't know what i wanted out of my life. 5 years have passed and i feel like i'm in the same boat. sometimes i wish i could go back and be 18 again, but have the knowledge i have now. maybe i'd have a little more direction for a 2nd time around.
i'm terrified of the future but i'm even more terrified of not having a future.
i need goals, passion, aspiration. i'm lacking it all. so i get stuck in these depressing ruts where i stress out about figuring out what i want out of life... which leads me to anxiety... which leads me to stress... which leads me to confusion and questions... which leads me to regret... which leads me to go with the "forget about it" attitude.
and then a little bit of time passes and i start the cycle all over again. right now i'm kind of in the confusion and questioning phase, so i should be moving on from this cycle shortly.
until next time...
but lately i can't seem to stop thinking about the future. and wondering what's in store.
what am i doing with my life?
seriously.
sure, i'm still young... but i sure aint gettin any younger. i've been telling myself this since i was 18. i thought it was bad then that i didn't know what i wanted out of my life. 5 years have passed and i feel like i'm in the same boat. sometimes i wish i could go back and be 18 again, but have the knowledge i have now. maybe i'd have a little more direction for a 2nd time around.
i'm terrified of the future but i'm even more terrified of not having a future.
i need goals, passion, aspiration. i'm lacking it all. so i get stuck in these depressing ruts where i stress out about figuring out what i want out of life... which leads me to anxiety... which leads me to stress... which leads me to confusion and questions... which leads me to regret... which leads me to go with the "forget about it" attitude.
and then a little bit of time passes and i start the cycle all over again. right now i'm kind of in the confusion and questioning phase, so i should be moving on from this cycle shortly.
until next time...