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I've been watching some of these OCD/Anxiety/Mental Disorder shows on Netflix, and it makes me wonder if you can actually cure anxiety or just sort of manage it. I can still go places and do things, even though it makes me upset or makes me panic, but I want to get to a point where I feel normal in situations that make me anxious now. CBT forces people to endure situations that trigger panic or anxiety, so the person sees that their panic will subside and they will be ok. Buuuut, it seems like I do that every day. I've been through a lot of situations that make me have a panic attack, and I feel the panic eventually subside, but it still happens when I encounter the situation again.
I'm going to start therapy in another week or so, and it just makes me wonder what else there is to it, if anything. I'm pretty sure that general exposure isn't any different than my daily life now, since I don't have any OCD rituals to cope with anything. haha. :|
AND I had an awesomely abscessed tooth, because a shitty filling fell out a couple weeks ago. Also there's the fact that I don't have money for/am terrified of the dentist, so I haven't been in a few years. I spent nearly a week not sleeping or eating, and it was pretty horrible. I finally went and got my tooth pulled on Tuesday (where I had a massive panic attack, despite taking Lorazepam before hand), and now I can finally chew food again. And I haven't had to take any Vicodin today, so I can actually type coherently again. I'm going to end up getting implant teeth eventually though, since my teeth are kind of severely screwed. I also don't have the money to do any of the other work they want to do either, since I still haven't found a job.
I'm learning Spanish though, since that is apparently the most valuable job skill in the southwest.
I'm going to start therapy in another week or so, and it just makes me wonder what else there is to it, if anything. I'm pretty sure that general exposure isn't any different than my daily life now, since I don't have any OCD rituals to cope with anything. haha. :|
AND I had an awesomely abscessed tooth, because a shitty filling fell out a couple weeks ago. Also there's the fact that I don't have money for/am terrified of the dentist, so I haven't been in a few years. I spent nearly a week not sleeping or eating, and it was pretty horrible. I finally went and got my tooth pulled on Tuesday (where I had a massive panic attack, despite taking Lorazepam before hand), and now I can finally chew food again. And I haven't had to take any Vicodin today, so I can actually type coherently again. I'm going to end up getting implant teeth eventually though, since my teeth are kind of severely screwed. I also don't have the money to do any of the other work they want to do either, since I still haven't found a job.
I'm learning Spanish though, since that is apparently the most valuable job skill in the southwest.