I'm Off
*sigh* Why else would I order food from a sub-par Chinese food restaurant with my roommate, even after I'd already had dinner, and then hang out with her, watching Scrubs, 30 rock, and The Office?
And I do like Scrubs but I'd never seen the other two before, and...well...I feel bad! She's broken up with her boyfriend and had a birthday and I haven't been able to say anything to her about either thing because she hasn't told me that; I've only picked it up from my fantastic eavesdropping deductive skills.
What's the point of this? The point of this is that I hate people. I hate making new friend when I have trouble enough keeping track of my old ones. But...I want her (and by extension, the rest of my suite mates) to like me. Which I think they do, but mostly because they have no idea who I am, that's how much of a non-entity I am.
I haven't talked to anyone outside fandom (and even there, not much) or my family all week. I know, objectively, that there's nothing wrong with that; I'm an introvert, it happens, the entire day can go by for me before I realize I haven't actually said anything all day.
But...I still feel, sometimes, like there's something wrong with me for that, and that's when I get...odd. Tired, depressed, kind of odd.
And it's not like we had great conversations but...there is so value in just sitting around and laughing at a TV show with someone, right? Even if it's not someone you really know or know enough to say whether you like them or not.
I just...feel weird. That's all.
I'm so glad the weeks almost over. So very, very glad.
And I do like Scrubs but I'd never seen the other two before, and...well...I feel bad! She's broken up with her boyfriend and had a birthday and I haven't been able to say anything to her about either thing because she hasn't told me that; I've only picked it up from my fantastic eavesdropping deductive skills.
What's the point of this? The point of this is that I hate people. I hate making new friend when I have trouble enough keeping track of my old ones. But...I want her (and by extension, the rest of my suite mates) to like me. Which I think they do, but mostly because they have no idea who I am, that's how much of a non-entity I am.
I haven't talked to anyone outside fandom (and even there, not much) or my family all week. I know, objectively, that there's nothing wrong with that; I'm an introvert, it happens, the entire day can go by for me before I realize I haven't actually said anything all day.
But...I still feel, sometimes, like there's something wrong with me for that, and that's when I get...odd. Tired, depressed, kind of odd.
And it's not like we had great conversations but...there is so value in just sitting around and laughing at a TV show with someone, right? Even if it's not someone you really know or know enough to say whether you like them or not.
I just...feel weird. That's all.
I'm so glad the weeks almost over. So very, very glad.