Scary
Ever since I was little, I had dreams about me getting married. But on the wedding day I would ALWAYS get depressed, and I didn't want to marry the guy. I felt like I was being forced to marry him. I still loved him and all, but I was grossed out by him, and I just couldnt do it, I couldn't marry him. I couldn't even LOOK at him. I didn't want him near me, and if he touched me, I would flinch. I would get so melancholy that I would wake up and still feel it.