Its been a while
Why is it that I only feel like writing after I've been awake for hours?
I'm working the midnight to 8AM shift at West.
This past Tuesday (6/8), I get an e-mail from my mom telling me that my brother stayed with a friend the night before and said he was coming to pick up his things the next day and that he was moving out/"running away".
Now, other than immediate worry for my brother and family, I felt anger. Anger that my mom had choosen to inform me of this in an E-MAIL. Really? This isn't something you could have picked up the phone to tell me about?
Anyway, from my personal observation, my brother hasn't been happy at home for some time and ever since January with the whole party incident, it's just gotten worse. Apparently, to top things off, he's chosen to move in with some kind of loser whose parents don't give a sh*t about him. Now, my brother is a smart kid but he makes some dumb choices, so of course I'm worried about him. Worried sick actually.
I guess it was about Thrusdayish, my dad calls freaking out that he hasn't heard from my brother in a few days. He doesn't know anything, so, I fill him because I figure he has a right to know even if he hasn't been dad of the year or anything.
Anyway, somehow my aunt finds out about it (I think she called my grandmother and she filled her in), and texts me (and my mom?) that she and my uncle are willing to take my brother away for a couple of weeks (doubtful). I think my mom is horrified with how many family members know now, I know she thinks its a reflection on her but she's not a bad mother, she really isn't, she loves my brother with all her heart and has given up so much so that he can be happy, but she does have to be a parent sometime... Anyway, I was getting calls from either my mom or my dad or both everyday, and I of course was texting/calling my brother urging him to contact people because they were freaking out.
I finally heard from him yesterday, he said he was fine and asked me how he should handle dad (because he was worried if my dad found out where he was living that he'd try to make him move in with him, which he doesn't want), so I told him that dad's main worry is that my brother is safe and once that was established, he might be okay.
It was SUCH a relief to hear his voice. I understand wanting freedom, I understand not feeling like the stranger in your own house because I went through the same thing with the whole Ernesto thing but to move to such a dangerous place...? At least I moved in with Jessa, she was a Godsend. Anyway, I thought this was important to document in case it's important to know later - hopefully it is not.
In other news...
All my labs have come back just fine the last couple months. Ader had me take a chest x-ray because I was coughing a lot but it came back clear. (BTW, I'm on Arava, a DMARD, in case I haven't stated that).
Also, I have graduated! Weird, it doesn't feel like it. Maybe because not a lot is changing until December.
ALSO, wedding planning is crazy. The more we do, the less it feels like we've done. And it's SO much money, I understand now why people elope, it's madness. I hope as we get closer to the day, we can still maintain the close family and friends feel.
I'm too tired to focus on writing anymore...
Bye for now.
I'm working the midnight to 8AM shift at West.
This past Tuesday (6/8), I get an e-mail from my mom telling me that my brother stayed with a friend the night before and said he was coming to pick up his things the next day and that he was moving out/"running away".
Now, other than immediate worry for my brother and family, I felt anger. Anger that my mom had choosen to inform me of this in an E-MAIL. Really? This isn't something you could have picked up the phone to tell me about?
Anyway, from my personal observation, my brother hasn't been happy at home for some time and ever since January with the whole party incident, it's just gotten worse. Apparently, to top things off, he's chosen to move in with some kind of loser whose parents don't give a sh*t about him. Now, my brother is a smart kid but he makes some dumb choices, so of course I'm worried about him. Worried sick actually.
I guess it was about Thrusdayish, my dad calls freaking out that he hasn't heard from my brother in a few days. He doesn't know anything, so, I fill him because I figure he has a right to know even if he hasn't been dad of the year or anything.
Anyway, somehow my aunt finds out about it (I think she called my grandmother and she filled her in), and texts me (and my mom?) that she and my uncle are willing to take my brother away for a couple of weeks (doubtful). I think my mom is horrified with how many family members know now, I know she thinks its a reflection on her but she's not a bad mother, she really isn't, she loves my brother with all her heart and has given up so much so that he can be happy, but she does have to be a parent sometime... Anyway, I was getting calls from either my mom or my dad or both everyday, and I of course was texting/calling my brother urging him to contact people because they were freaking out.
I finally heard from him yesterday, he said he was fine and asked me how he should handle dad (because he was worried if my dad found out where he was living that he'd try to make him move in with him, which he doesn't want), so I told him that dad's main worry is that my brother is safe and once that was established, he might be okay.
It was SUCH a relief to hear his voice. I understand wanting freedom, I understand not feeling like the stranger in your own house because I went through the same thing with the whole Ernesto thing but to move to such a dangerous place...? At least I moved in with Jessa, she was a Godsend. Anyway, I thought this was important to document in case it's important to know later - hopefully it is not.
In other news...
All my labs have come back just fine the last couple months. Ader had me take a chest x-ray because I was coughing a lot but it came back clear. (BTW, I'm on Arava, a DMARD, in case I haven't stated that).
Also, I have graduated! Weird, it doesn't feel like it. Maybe because not a lot is changing until December.
ALSO, wedding planning is crazy. The more we do, the less it feels like we've done. And it's SO much money, I understand now why people elope, it's madness. I hope as we get closer to the day, we can still maintain the close family and friends feel.
I'm too tired to focus on writing anymore...
Bye for now.