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Well.. things have been happening. But not nice things. or me going to ED for this thing in my head.
Eric isn't well.... his body and mind started to shut down on Saturday... but Sunday his kidneys had given up the ghost.... he could of been dead that night.
but somehow his kidneys started to work and he started to urinate. phew right?
he went from being pretty much comatose to wandering the halls of the hospital babbling to himself (he's lost some brain function due to the toxins in his blood/brain... though he's slowly regaining sanity... a little bit breaks through and more is breaking through every day).
now his liver is in dire straights. he's turning yellow. jaundice is occurring. if things don't improve.... i think I will be missing The most influential man in my teenage and adult life within a week or so.
a little daunting.
to make matters worse the head pain is increasingly getting worse and worse. without painkillers I'm fairly brain-dead (but luckily nothing like what poor eric has been going through) unable to move in the fetal position tears leaking....
so now I'm on a morphine patch.... it's not enough though. still have to take Oxycontin along side it otherwise the agony sets in.
every day is worse than the last.. i wish it was just my issues being worse.... but it's not. my Eric... my poor Eric. I'm so worried.... but i know it's nearly time for him to go. it might not be for a few more months if we're lucky... but nearly time...
I am really missing those I call (and called) Friends right now. thank god for the internet... so at least i can talk to some of them...
Eric isn't well.... his body and mind started to shut down on Saturday... but Sunday his kidneys had given up the ghost.... he could of been dead that night.
but somehow his kidneys started to work and he started to urinate. phew right?
he went from being pretty much comatose to wandering the halls of the hospital babbling to himself (he's lost some brain function due to the toxins in his blood/brain... though he's slowly regaining sanity... a little bit breaks through and more is breaking through every day).
now his liver is in dire straights. he's turning yellow. jaundice is occurring. if things don't improve.... i think I will be missing The most influential man in my teenage and adult life within a week or so.
a little daunting.
to make matters worse the head pain is increasingly getting worse and worse. without painkillers I'm fairly brain-dead (but luckily nothing like what poor eric has been going through) unable to move in the fetal position tears leaking....
so now I'm on a morphine patch.... it's not enough though. still have to take Oxycontin along side it otherwise the agony sets in.
every day is worse than the last.. i wish it was just my issues being worse.... but it's not. my Eric... my poor Eric. I'm so worried.... but i know it's nearly time for him to go. it might not be for a few more months if we're lucky... but nearly time...
I am really missing those I call (and called) Friends right now. thank god for the internet... so at least i can talk to some of them...