the supreme court has gutted me this week. i keep having terrible thoughts like 'WHAT IF I GET PREGNANT--wait, i have a tubal ligation' or 'someday, someone is going to show up at the door and arrest me, for having once had an abortion' or 'someday, i'm going to go to a hospital and be refused medical care, because i've had a tubal ligation'. and that's just *that* and oh i have been crying for everyone who had little or no hope or help *before* and now it's even worse. and the voting rezoning is BS, and yes where can we get a democrat that will DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS PLEASE?
*very long sigh*
i'm messing with my hair again too. it's already in an asymmetrical A-line, but i decided to get down with my dumb self and attempt a sort of S-curve part for quadrants and alternate dark cerulean with dark purple. as always, this worked better in plan than performance and better in the front than the back, but that's what happens when i dye my own hair, which is the only way my hair's ever been dyed, because i don't have anyone else to help. who knows if it'll work. i am seriously not looking forward to scrubbing down the damned shower after i rinse, but what's new about that? aside from 'i haven't done anything this close to black in decades'.
oh, um, i think i may have mentioned the whole 'nearly died in april' thing. you know, with the hospitalization and breaking myself out and then justin had to do Serious Home Nurse Shit and it was awful? and it was nearly healed and then it reinfected on a second site for no reason anyone can tell and i had to go right back to urgent care and wound care? anyway. it's once again almost entirely gone, the bills are as taken care of as looking out of a pit can get, you know the feel. but i'm actively eating healthy and aggressively walking (as in i won't let my fear of people keep me from hauling ass around at 3 a.m., not even into the darkest private nooks, because i need the 'hills' and a decent feeble workout, so there). so i'm losing weight and putting on muscle to go with 'i hate everyone who seems to think that cool hair is only for millenials'.
so, well, yeah. i won't watch any of those movies, SERIOUS good luck with your wellness, and yet more good luck with your hair. i hope it turns out wonderfully so you have something to be pleased about. thanks for continuing to post here, i'd hate to lose track of you. i think of you far more often than i comment (shame on me).
Even with Roe, I remember the bullshit that sometimes happened at the hospital where I was injured or in pain and needed a scan of some kind that involved radiation and the doctors kept stalling the scan/X-ray and/or treatment because omg, what if I'm actually pregnant? Even at age 14, I was like "I will sign a legal paper swearing I'm not so can you just start treating this?!"
I am dying here hoping the federal Democrats find their spines to fight the illegitimate's Court's insane rulings. Stop being so passive and civil while these "Christian" extremist assholes are ripping our civil rights away!
The hair bands I've been using may be doing some damage to my hair, so I recently bought claw clips to put it up instead, updos being especially necessary in the summer heat. I'll see how it goes. My new hair color is lightening and reddening more but it may need more time.
My hair condition after dyeing was much better when I was having it done by professionals, but that's expensive and I don't know if my spine as it currently is could handle the hard ledge of a sink when they wash my hair out, something that was difficult for me even before my Chiari struck in full and neuropathy and having sections of some of my vertebrae shaved off.
I'm sorry you had to go through that and hope you're doing much better. I've put on unwanted weight since the start of the pandemic that absolutely refuses to go away, making me the heaviest I've ever been. It's concentrated mostly in my midsection. I'm still doing a lot of walking but that's not helping.
*very long sigh*
i'm messing with my hair again too. it's already in an asymmetrical A-line, but i decided to get down with my dumb self and attempt a sort of S-curve part for quadrants and alternate dark cerulean with dark purple. as always, this worked better in plan than performance and better in the front than the back, but that's what happens when i dye my own hair, which is the only way my hair's ever been dyed, because i don't have anyone else to help. who knows if it'll work. i am seriously not looking forward to scrubbing down the damned shower after i rinse, but what's new about that? aside from 'i haven't done anything this close to black in decades'.
oh, um, i think i may have mentioned the whole 'nearly died in april' thing. you know, with the hospitalization and breaking myself out and then justin had to do Serious Home Nurse Shit and it was awful? and it was nearly healed and then it reinfected on a second site for no reason anyone can tell and i had to go right back to urgent care and wound care? anyway. it's once again almost entirely gone, the bills are as taken care of as looking out of a pit can get, you know the feel. but i'm actively eating healthy and aggressively walking (as in i won't let my fear of people keep me from hauling ass around at 3 a.m., not even into the darkest private nooks, because i need the 'hills' and a decent feeble workout, so there). so i'm losing weight and putting on muscle to go with 'i hate everyone who seems to think that cool hair is only for millenials'.
so, well, yeah. i won't watch any of those movies, SERIOUS good luck with your wellness, and yet more good luck with your hair. i hope it turns out wonderfully so you have something to be pleased about. thanks for continuing to post here, i'd hate to lose track of you. i think of you far more often than i comment (shame on me).
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I am dying here hoping the federal Democrats find their spines to fight the illegitimate's Court's insane rulings. Stop being so passive and civil while these "Christian" extremist assholes are ripping our civil rights away!
The hair bands I've been using may be doing some damage to my hair, so I recently bought claw clips to put it up instead, updos being especially necessary in the summer heat. I'll see how it goes. My new hair color is lightening and reddening more but it may need more time.
My hair condition after dyeing was much better when I was having it done by professionals, but that's expensive and I don't know if my spine as it currently is could handle the hard ledge of a sink when they wash my hair out, something that was difficult for me even before my Chiari struck in full and neuropathy and having sections of some of my vertebrae shaved off.
I'm sorry you had to go through that and hope you're doing much better. I've put on unwanted weight since the start of the pandemic that absolutely refuses to go away, making me the heaviest I've ever been. It's concentrated mostly in my midsection. I'm still doing a lot of walking but that's not helping.
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