Too Hot
With weeks of high heat and humidity I haven't been writing... or walking much or doing much of anything else but suffering. It shouldn't be 80 F/27 C with tropical humidity even at 3 a.m. in New York. Sometimes I don't even bother going on the internet at night because my head feels too heavy to do anything but sleep. My electric bill will be giving me another reason to be terrified about my heavily dwindling bank account this month.
Almost two weeks of hair washings later, my hair color looks much better as the colors are blending better and my natural highlights are reasserting themselves, especially on the left side of my head, where the (American) driver's tan on my left arm goes along with (American) driver's highlights in my hair on the left side of my head. The look is still not something I would've done to myself intentionally, but it doesn't look bad or like a mistake.
Last night I had a dream in which I was moving/floating through a house and restaurant as if there was zero gravity but just for me, everyone else was normal. Weirdness. It was really hard to direct and propel myself.
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I just saw a commercial for Queer Eye about how people need a little help getting out of their cocoon. Dude, all I need is money. A new or newish car I won't have to worry abut falling apart around me and sucking repair money out of me, some vacations, a wardrobe of nice not-falling-apart clothes, being able to travel to see friends (the last travel/vacation was 2009 after I just got my Social Security money, when I drove to Boston to see a fan friend for a few days and slept in her apartment), a haircut by an expert that costs more than $10-20 and shows it, just watch me get out into the world with that and shine. (And there were people who helped me when things looked really dire and it’d be nice to be able to compensate them in some way as thanks.)
Someone to declutter my bedroom for me would also be nice for me and my state of mind.
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Almost two weeks of hair washings later, my hair color looks much better as the colors are blending better and my natural highlights are reasserting themselves, especially on the left side of my head, where the (American) driver's tan on my left arm goes along with (American) driver's highlights in my hair on the left side of my head. The look is still not something I would've done to myself intentionally, but it doesn't look bad or like a mistake.
Last night I had a dream in which I was moving/floating through a house and restaurant as if there was zero gravity but just for me, everyone else was normal. Weirdness. It was really hard to direct and propel myself.
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I just saw a commercial for Queer Eye about how people need a little help getting out of their cocoon. Dude, all I need is money. A new or newish car I won't have to worry abut falling apart around me and sucking repair money out of me, some vacations, a wardrobe of nice not-falling-apart clothes, being able to travel to see friends (the last travel/vacation was 2009 after I just got my Social Security money, when I drove to Boston to see a fan friend for a few days and slept in her apartment), a haircut by an expert that costs more than $10-20 and shows it, just watch me get out into the world with that and shine. (And there were people who helped me when things looked really dire and it’d be nice to be able to compensate them in some way as thanks.)
Someone to declutter my bedroom for me would also be nice for me and my state of mind.
You can comment here or at the Dreamwidth crosspost.
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