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last night i had a bit of a breakdown, which i do not foreseeing disappearing in the near future, even as i am sidetracked by other things. it is always right there brimming just beneath the patina of my day-to-day goings on, threatening to surface and derail me for an evening. i don't know why i cannot talk about it. i just can't. i do not think i have ever confessed these things in their entirety to anyone before, and i tell you what, i wish i had a therapist, guidance counselor and fairy godmother rolled up into one to help me out. i realize that if i could just talk about it, i would probably feel a lot better having shifting the weight slightly off my shoulders but i always bite back what i should say.
on an entirely different note:
i wish i was a wine sommelier, like i knew what i was talking about but that would require me to not smell phantom smells, like feet, whenever it's around. it makes me want to throw up, and i have on occasion thrown up from drinking cheap wine. i blame lucy because as a child i watched i love lucy, and that episode where she is in italy stomping on grapes in a massive barrel has been seared into my mind forever so feet and wine will always been associated with one another even if i know that wine is usually not pressed that way anymore.
i wish i was a better beer drinker, too. i have got the cheese and cracker part down though, i'll tell you that. although, definitely not beer nuts or any food from a bar. those skeeve me out a little bit.
on an entirely different note:
i wish i was a wine sommelier, like i knew what i was talking about but that would require me to not smell phantom smells, like feet, whenever it's around. it makes me want to throw up, and i have on occasion thrown up from drinking cheap wine. i blame lucy because as a child i watched i love lucy, and that episode where she is in italy stomping on grapes in a massive barrel has been seared into my mind forever so feet and wine will always been associated with one another even if i know that wine is usually not pressed that way anymore.
i wish i was a better beer drinker, too. i have got the cheese and cracker part down though, i'll tell you that. although, definitely not beer nuts or any food from a bar. those skeeve me out a little bit.