on top of this, i have a splitting headache
i really dont want to go to work today. i still feel sad, just this sort of cant-shake-it kind of sad. not becuse of anything in particular, just regular ole depression. youd think it wouldve gone away as i got older, but not so much. it seems like its only gotten worse. i dont know wat i can do about it. perry says i just need to make a decision to be a happier person and not let things get me down so much. its just not that easy for me though. i feel this constant weight on me, and its overwhelming to say the least. i try to distract myself, but it doesnt always work. i do wish perry were here more often, but i have work and he has school so i just kind of have to deal with it. i wish he was here right now, so i dont have to feel so ridiculously lonely when mike is here and erin doesnt feel like she needs to acknowledge my prescence. ugh.