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[vip2myheart]

i enjoy breaking my finger by being a dumbass and slamming it in the car door.
i had to get out of the car at a stop light to do something silly
but i slammed the door on my hand
and my ring got stuck into my finger
and its now swollen to the max.

i like this boy.
hes really cute and sweet
my perfect match
literally.
but i kno ill do the same thing i always do
push him away
becuase i hate people getting to close
and its a huge fear of mine.
i am a player of "the game"
and i cant get myself out of it
i like to chase the boys
and then once i have em
im bored and done with them.
i hate being me sometimes
how am i supposed to fall in love again
if i dont allow anyone to love me?

nicole leaves thursday and wants to hang out with me tomorrow
but i dont want too.
i promised kim id hang out with her too
but i dont want too.
im just so tired
and drained
i dont sleep till like 5 in the morning
then have to wake up early to take care of shit
have to deal with emotions and drama during the day
ahhhh i want to get away.