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i want this summer to rock
i want to have last hoorahs with old friends
its hard having to realize the fact that people are leaving
i will no longer have 2:00 cigarette sessions with holly
no more sleep overs.
no more shit talkin about how much highschool sucks and all the sluts in it.
i will have NOBODY
and that scares me.
i want to go back to where i was riding the bus to elementary school with elisha
and us rollerblading in my neighborhood singing backstreet boys.
or in junior high where i was infactuated with boys and becoming who i was
or in highschool where i learned who i was and made memories with those who helped me become everything i am.
at the movies theaters smoking pot and drinking alchol from shampoo bottles cause roseann is genius like that
or lingering around at the mall buying fake cell phones because me and holly were badass
slumber parties and living at everyone houses except for mine
i want to walk through the halls of highschool
and stand and gossip with my friends
i dont want to end this chapter of my life
i dont want it to end the way its already ending
and i dont want to loose everyone.
well on a different note
im joiningg the peace corps, or americorps. havent decided which one yet.
i want to hopefully join after the summer.
i just really need it.
i need to get a huge reality check that my life could be worse.
i mean i could be in africa where i have to deal with the fear of getting killed everysecond of the day, or have no food or water and could die of starvation, or have nothing at all. i would choose my silly teenage sorrowful life anyday over that.
i want to have last hoorahs with old friends
its hard having to realize the fact that people are leaving
i will no longer have 2:00 cigarette sessions with holly
no more sleep overs.
no more shit talkin about how much highschool sucks and all the sluts in it.
i will have NOBODY
and that scares me.
i want to go back to where i was riding the bus to elementary school with elisha
and us rollerblading in my neighborhood singing backstreet boys.
or in junior high where i was infactuated with boys and becoming who i was
or in highschool where i learned who i was and made memories with those who helped me become everything i am.
at the movies theaters smoking pot and drinking alchol from shampoo bottles cause roseann is genius like that
or lingering around at the mall buying fake cell phones because me and holly were badass
slumber parties and living at everyone houses except for mine
i want to walk through the halls of highschool
and stand and gossip with my friends
i dont want to end this chapter of my life
i dont want it to end the way its already ending
and i dont want to loose everyone.
well on a different note
im joiningg the peace corps, or americorps. havent decided which one yet.
i want to hopefully join after the summer.
i just really need it.
i need to get a huge reality check that my life could be worse.
i mean i could be in africa where i have to deal with the fear of getting killed everysecond of the day, or have no food or water and could die of starvation, or have nothing at all. i would choose my silly teenage sorrowful life anyday over that.