the pace of my life
Everyone is so busy, all the time, or at least the people I surround myself with. I value productivity, but do not appreciate the rat race. When it gets to the point where friends are too busy to spend time with each other, or when someone is too busy just to spend some quality time with themselves, it's too much. Our society is so focused on productivity, activity, and busy work. I wish we better knew how to slow down. Furthermore, I wish we would allow ourselves to enjoy a more slow paced lifestyle, and not feel guilty about it.
And yet, I enjoy being busy. I like going from school, walking to work, making money at the law office, having choir rehearsals every day of the week, singing a church services every Sunday morning, doing recording sessions and concerts, practicing my singing, exercising, doing yoga. I like being active, and I like being busy. Though, sometimes I think, "enough is enough." I do this everyday -- sometimes, I want something more. Some profound activities that will make a lasting impression on me; something I will remember for years to come. Most of our everyday lives are forgettable; I have forgotten most of my moments. And yet those moments that remain in mind make up who I am. (To some extent.) My friends are literally becoming ill from being too busy and too stressed out. When will we learn to slow down? More importantly, HOW can we do this? How do we find that balance?
I feel like I've found a rather good balance for myself. I take alone time everyday. I try to focus myself on the present moment everyday, as much as I can, when I remember to do it.
This week has been alright --- it is the end of the quarter, the pressure is becoming greater. I am ready for summer vacation, believe it or not. It is hard for me to believe that I will be a senior next year. That's the other thing -- time is going so fast, greatly due to the fact that we are always so busy. Life is so short --- it's just going so fast.
Well --- I've had a nice, relaxing evening alone in my room. That's nice at least.