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I'm sitting in my dorm room alone, listening to beautifully calm music. Sufjan. Seven Swans. I suppose it suits my melancholy mood. There is something wonderfully beautiful about feeling melancholy; wallowing in your own semi-sadness, daydreaming about beauty, and yet, feeling sad in your heart. Trying to maintain optimism. Music brings forth stronger emotions.
The Brahms Requiem never spoke to me emotionally until tonight, performing it onstage with the Tacoma Symphony Orchestra and Chorale at the Pantages Theatre. The minor sixth leaps in the second (?) movement in the alto part brought tears to my eyes. I smiled a lot in the sixth movement and felt genuinely excited. Maybe I started to understand all the hype around this piece of music. The soloists weren't good; pretty mediocre. Our applause was weak.
I want more. However, I feel that I'm always desiring something more. Once I get what I want, there is something else I desire. Never enough. I think it's good to strive for more, but also important to accept the situation for what it is. A fine balance. I walked for 90 minutes today on the Burke Gilman Trail. Mt. Rainier was striking and dominated the horizon. I enjoy watching the ducks in Drumheller Fountain. I saw Teresa today, who I haven't seen in a month. Lovely to truly socialize with someone. Something I haven't done enough of this week, despite my efforts.
I'm enjoying this unique time in my life. I learn more and more everyday. About life, myself, others. I want to know others more. I like the french horn.
"buckets of moonbeams in my hand." (Dylan)
The Brahms Requiem never spoke to me emotionally until tonight, performing it onstage with the Tacoma Symphony Orchestra and Chorale at the Pantages Theatre. The minor sixth leaps in the second (?) movement in the alto part brought tears to my eyes. I smiled a lot in the sixth movement and felt genuinely excited. Maybe I started to understand all the hype around this piece of music. The soloists weren't good; pretty mediocre. Our applause was weak.
I want more. However, I feel that I'm always desiring something more. Once I get what I want, there is something else I desire. Never enough. I think it's good to strive for more, but also important to accept the situation for what it is. A fine balance. I walked for 90 minutes today on the Burke Gilman Trail. Mt. Rainier was striking and dominated the horizon. I enjoy watching the ducks in Drumheller Fountain. I saw Teresa today, who I haven't seen in a month. Lovely to truly socialize with someone. Something I haven't done enough of this week, despite my efforts.
I'm enjoying this unique time in my life. I learn more and more everyday. About life, myself, others. I want to know others more. I like the french horn.
"buckets of moonbeams in my hand." (Dylan)