I apologize for being so distant these past few days. Actually, I have not spent much time with you at all since your illness. I have had quite a few things to deal with. Time travel, spirit seeking, Shadow Games... *smirks, purposefully teasing*
*smiles* I know that you had a lot to deal with, that's why I haven't bothered you. I thought that if I were to press the issue, it would only drive us apart. I too was a bit apprehensive. I didn't want you to think that I couldn't stand on my own. I enjoy your presence, even if we are unable to be in the same room.
*tilts his head slightly in inquisition* What is a Shadow Game?
*visably nervous* Uh... Well, it wasn't an official Shadow Game...
Real Shadow Games are what I used to judge people when I was at the height of my power. If anyone dared to upset my friends, I would take them into the Shadow Realm and... {Thinks: Drive them insane!} I would gamble with their souls. If they lost the Game, they would either... {Thinks: Be mentally tortured or die horribly!} either lose their minds or die. If they passed the test, they were left unscathed.
O-of course, I rarely did this. Only if it caused those I loved suffering...
Well, I see that you do what is necessary to protect those that you love. *looks off in thought*
{thinks: I have to think of a way to let him know that I'm not frightened.} I think if I were to have a power like that, I would have to use it on the board members if they tried to lie to me. I don't think I could use a power like that as wisely. *smiles* I'm glad that you are the wielder und not me.
I'm not so certain. *sits down on a bench in the garden* I have never been wrong in resorting to a Shadow Game. All those I tested deserved their fates. But the other night...
*looks ashamed* Not only did I take a terrible personal risk, but I was proven wrong in the end. On one hand, I'm glad I misjudged him. On the other... I misjudged him! *sighs heavily* At least some good came out of it. But I still feel guilty.
*takes a seat next to Atem in one smooth motion, listening intently to every word* I see. *eyes widen slightly,the breeze blowing gently around them* Could it be that it's a blessing that you misjudged?
I was once Pharaoh! My judgement was law and truth! *staring ar the flowers swaying in the breeze* You may be correct. Perhaps this is yet another sigh for me to just step back and let go of my past self a bit more.
*glances at what Atem was looking at, following his line of sight* Well, sometimes we have to make due with what is given to us. You are Pharaoh. *looks at Atem with stern yet gentle eyes* Und don't you ever forget who you are. You lose that, you lose more than just your legacy.
*small smile* Yes... I may have lost everything, but I am still me... Mostly. *inhales the scent of the garden* I only hope I am not disgraced in the eyes of the gods for having succumb to an evil spell so soon after being brought back!
*smiles warmly as he closes his eyes, turning his face at the setting sun, opening his eyes* If we were to worry about the details of our lives every moment of the day, we would die early.
*turning his face to meet Atem's eyes* I'm sure that we can find a solution. I'm not sure about this spell that you are talking about, but I would like to help you, if you let me. *looks deeply into crimson eyes* Please, don't push me away. I will do what I can for you, but you have to let me in. I'm trying to understand with what little information that I have gathered from pieces of conversations of the past. *looks slightly worried* But I can understand if. . . *casts his eyes down*. . . you don't want to tell me.
*heart melts at the sight of Zigfried's downcast eyes, but also wrung by guilt* I do wish to be perfectly honest with you, Zigfried. I trust you very much, but... I should confess something to you first.
Leon was my opponent the other night. *adding quickly* He was in no danger! I would never harm him! I was just anxious about everything that happened earlier this week, and I wanted to better judge him through a Shadow Game!
I am sorry if I betrayed your trust. *swallows, worried Zigfried's going to be furious with him*
*looks hurt at the realization that Atem had done something that could have harmed his brother, feeling torn between betrayal, outrage and hurt, swallowing back his tears, but can't hold them back* Why? *griping his loose fitting shirt at his heart, looking at Atem with pain in his eyes, tears falling* You say he wasn't in danger, but yet I feel that I was pushed aside! Why? *can't hold back his pain as he begins to shake*
*not looking directly into his eyes* I... I didn't know whether or not to trust him! All of those things he said! When I see obstacles in my way, or those I love suffer, I get defensive! It was a risk, but I wanted to make certain he wouldn't get in the way of... *eyes totally in shadow* I should have spoken with you first. I'm sorry. He was in no danger, I swear!
*wraps his arms around his torso as he leans forward, sobbing in silence, trying his best to collect his thoughts, whispering* I . . . believe you. *slowly sits up, wiping tears from his eyes* I know. . you wouldn't harm anyone. I trust you. . . but it still hurts that you didn't trust me enough to talk to me first. *closing his eyes, pressing them tight, dropping his head into his hands, hiding his face, his hair creating a curtain*
{Thinks: "Anyone"? Does he not know that I have burned people alive! I have crippled people! I have driven them insane! Ra, why can't I just let go?! Why can't I just say everything to him?!}
*hand reaches out to draw the lovely pink curtain aside, but pulls back* I was... afraid. I'm not used to feeling so... so damned afraid!
*rubs his eyes with back of his sleeve, whispering between sobs, making a courageous attempt to collect himself, keeping his eyes cast down as he gives a small chuckle* I have news for you, it's called being human. We all are afraid of something. Would you like to know my fear? *gives a small smile*
I apologize for being so distant these past few days. Actually, I have not spent much time with you at all since your illness. I have had quite a few things to deal with. Time travel, spirit seeking, Shadow Games... *smirks, purposefully teasing*
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*tilts his head slightly in inquisition* What is a Shadow Game?
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Real Shadow Games are what I used to judge people when I was at the height of my power. If anyone dared to upset my friends, I would take them into the Shadow Realm and... {Thinks: Drive them insane!} I would gamble with their souls. If they lost the Game, they would either... {Thinks: Be mentally tortured or die horribly!} either lose their minds or die. If they passed the test, they were left unscathed.
O-of course, I rarely did this. Only if it caused those I loved suffering...
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{thinks: I have to think of a way to let him know that I'm not frightened.} I think if I were to have a power like that, I would have to use it on the board members if they tried to lie to me. I don't think I could use a power like that as wisely. *smiles* I'm glad that you are the wielder und not me.
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*looks ashamed* Not only did I take a terrible personal risk, but I was proven wrong in the end. On one hand, I'm glad I misjudged him. On the other... I misjudged him! *sighs heavily* At least some good came out of it. But I still feel guilty.
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*turning his face to meet Atem's eyes* I'm sure that we can find a solution. I'm not sure about this spell that you are talking about, but I would like to help you, if you let me. *looks deeply into crimson eyes* Please, don't push me away. I will do what I can for you, but you have to let me in. I'm trying to understand with what little information that I have gathered from pieces of conversations of the past. *looks slightly worried* But I can understand if. . . *casts his eyes down*. . . you don't want to tell me.
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Leon was my opponent the other night. *adding quickly* He was in no danger! I would never harm him! I was just anxious about everything that happened earlier this week, and I wanted to better judge him through a Shadow Game!
I am sorry if I betrayed your trust. *swallows, worried Zigfried's going to be furious with him*
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*hand reaches out to draw the lovely pink curtain aside, but pulls back* I was... afraid. I'm not used to feeling so... so damned afraid!
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