Meh
It's half 2 and I'm already bored senseless. I get the feeling that today is going to be a long one! The worst thing is that it's actually a day off, but because of having Tuesday and Wednesday off too this week, I've kinda exhausted anything worth doing and most people are gonna be at work. Meh.
I suppose I could do a third draft of a couple of my Writing for Reading pieces, but it really depends whether or not I can get into a creative mood.
Last night was rubbish. Matt and I had a fight...another one. Basically he said something that caught a nerve and I had to tell him how annoying it is that he doesn't organise anything, ever. He started off annoyed and then got all quiet and sulky. I think I stayed quite calm, actually, which may or may not be a good sign.
I don't think I'm asking a lot. I'm asking for him to first and foremost organise his life so that I'm not constantly running round him organising everything and reminding him of the things I can't do for him. I'd also like him to arrange some things occassionally. Y'know, even if it would just be to call me to suggest seeing a film one night or something like that. Hell, I'm not even asking him to spend any money [that came up in the fight. He reckons I have more spare money than him so I should pay more. I disagree.] just the idea would be enough.
So basically I've given him an ultimatum to either get his shit together or he's going to lose me. Maybe that sounds harsh, but I can't have a relationship with someone that I feel I am mothering. That's not sexy, and not only that, it's very stressful. He says he's going to try, though. Hell, even a little step in the right direction would make me feel better. I just hope he actually does it because I can't make excuses for him anymore.
I hope noone that knows him thinks that I'm being horrible with what I've said above. I just needed to vent it and it's nothing I haven't said to his face.
So yes, that's been my last couple of days. On a better note, I am drinking tea and listening to Blaqk Audio.
I suppose I could do a third draft of a couple of my Writing for Reading pieces, but it really depends whether or not I can get into a creative mood.
Last night was rubbish. Matt and I had a fight...another one. Basically he said something that caught a nerve and I had to tell him how annoying it is that he doesn't organise anything, ever. He started off annoyed and then got all quiet and sulky. I think I stayed quite calm, actually, which may or may not be a good sign.
I don't think I'm asking a lot. I'm asking for him to first and foremost organise his life so that I'm not constantly running round him organising everything and reminding him of the things I can't do for him. I'd also like him to arrange some things occassionally. Y'know, even if it would just be to call me to suggest seeing a film one night or something like that. Hell, I'm not even asking him to spend any money [that came up in the fight. He reckons I have more spare money than him so I should pay more. I disagree.] just the idea would be enough.
So basically I've given him an ultimatum to either get his shit together or he's going to lose me. Maybe that sounds harsh, but I can't have a relationship with someone that I feel I am mothering. That's not sexy, and not only that, it's very stressful. He says he's going to try, though. Hell, even a little step in the right direction would make me feel better. I just hope he actually does it because I can't make excuses for him anymore.
I hope noone that knows him thinks that I'm being horrible with what I've said above. I just needed to vent it and it's nothing I haven't said to his face.
So yes, that's been my last couple of days. On a better note, I am drinking tea and listening to Blaqk Audio.