Updates
So - I'm alive - I really am.
I have been posting on FB mainly - and occasionally via one of the Bloggers - I do enjoy it though I have no way to filter my audience with it.
Lots of no change going on in my life - it's been more than a month since Myles and I broke up, we do not talk or meet often in person - but I still think we are close and continue to mean a great deal to eachother.
In the habit of 'not staying single long' I kind of hooked up with an old couple / friends of mine - and we're thinking about making more of it. I'm not sure.
Sometimes I don't want the complication, other times I very much want to be claimed, to be loved in my way and to be a part of making someone's day complete, I want to be missed when I'm not around. More to the point I want that him. Yes I know I'm probably more twitterpated than I'd like it to be known...
Here I swore off that kind of entanglement (poly) - but I find that other than not feeling at times appriciated / wanted I don't have as much of a problem with the more lavacious behavior on the guys part as I once would have (I find myself examining why I feel upset rather than a 'deal breaker'). The wife and I are getting along very well thus far and I'm kind of holding still while guy makes up his mind about trying this kind of arrangmenet again... for him it's not gone well - I have to say for myself other than Myles it hasn't gone well either.
I feel the scepter of C&A looming over my past, my decisions, theirs and the consequences - and I am trying hard to not let them stain my interactions with others in new situations. To learn from the mistakes there is one thing - to refuse to go there again because of attributing C&A's experience across the board isn't right nor fair to the new people one might meet.
I am cautiously hopful, for however it turns out.
I have been posting on FB mainly - and occasionally via one of the Bloggers - I do enjoy it though I have no way to filter my audience with it.
Lots of no change going on in my life - it's been more than a month since Myles and I broke up, we do not talk or meet often in person - but I still think we are close and continue to mean a great deal to eachother.
In the habit of 'not staying single long' I kind of hooked up with an old couple / friends of mine - and we're thinking about making more of it. I'm not sure.
Sometimes I don't want the complication, other times I very much want to be claimed, to be loved in my way and to be a part of making someone's day complete, I want to be missed when I'm not around. More to the point I want that him. Yes I know I'm probably more twitterpated than I'd like it to be known...
Here I swore off that kind of entanglement (poly) - but I find that other than not feeling at times appriciated / wanted I don't have as much of a problem with the more lavacious behavior on the guys part as I once would have (I find myself examining why I feel upset rather than a 'deal breaker'). The wife and I are getting along very well thus far and I'm kind of holding still while guy makes up his mind about trying this kind of arrangmenet again... for him it's not gone well - I have to say for myself other than Myles it hasn't gone well either.
I feel the scepter of C&A looming over my past, my decisions, theirs and the consequences - and I am trying hard to not let them stain my interactions with others in new situations. To learn from the mistakes there is one thing - to refuse to go there again because of attributing C&A's experience across the board isn't right nor fair to the new people one might meet.
I am cautiously hopful, for however it turns out.