sick of this fuckin disease that prevents me from doing all the things I love!
yesterday was a pretty day, we went to the vietnamese restaurant with my family and we really enjoyed it,it was for my dad's bday and everything was fine.
We also went to Ikea and seb wanted to buy those ghost light so cute :D so we bought one ;)
Then in the car when my mom was driving I felt weird really,gotta a weird sensation in my brain and thought of death at once!
It was quick and didn t last but it got me stressed about the medecine I'm taking
As my disease (raynaud ) is not healed at all and I hate taking meds especially these ones that are mostly given for old people,for alzeihmer etc...so it stressed me a lot!
this morning I woke up tired and depressed and cried...I needed to cry!
I am SO FRUSTRATED to take this meds and to see no big improvement in ly fuckin right hand!
I still have to wait until february but taking meds that don't seem efficient for one more month annoys me...I dont know what to do...
I joined a forum about orphan diseases so that I could find some support with people who knows what I'm talking about!
I even feel more stress and anxiety if I'm taken for the job because I am not very competent at the mo for I can't write much it hurts my fingers and I can t type fast as i'm typing with the help of a pen:(
Fuck!!!!!
I would like to go at Lourdes and put my hand in the water and see a miracle...I know I'm crazy and desperate:((
I hate winter for this disease is also mostly due to cold weather and i can't bear this!!!
on a better and lighter side one of my artwork is going to be published in Artitudezine, I still can't believe it but I was very happy when I knew that!let's see!
We also went to Ikea and seb wanted to buy those ghost light so cute :D so we bought one ;)
Then in the car when my mom was driving I felt weird really,gotta a weird sensation in my brain and thought of death at once!
It was quick and didn t last but it got me stressed about the medecine I'm taking
As my disease (raynaud ) is not healed at all and I hate taking meds especially these ones that are mostly given for old people,for alzeihmer etc...so it stressed me a lot!
this morning I woke up tired and depressed and cried...I needed to cry!
I am SO FRUSTRATED to take this meds and to see no big improvement in ly fuckin right hand!
I still have to wait until february but taking meds that don't seem efficient for one more month annoys me...I dont know what to do...
I joined a forum about orphan diseases so that I could find some support with people who knows what I'm talking about!
I even feel more stress and anxiety if I'm taken for the job because I am not very competent at the mo for I can't write much it hurts my fingers and I can t type fast as i'm typing with the help of a pen:(
Fuck!!!!!
I would like to go at Lourdes and put my hand in the water and see a miracle...I know I'm crazy and desperate:((
I hate winter for this disease is also mostly due to cold weather and i can't bear this!!!
on a better and lighter side one of my artwork is going to be published in Artitudezine, I still can't believe it but I was very happy when I knew that!let's see!