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she got back with drew.
i give up... my heart seriously cant take this anymore. she doesnt care. wanna know that most fucked up part about it? ok... well... i'll give you the story...
after all those emails we sent more and more to each other and i told her i never wanted to see her again... and just like any other day... she called me up crying... spilling her guts about how beth told her everything. how beth supposedly knew all along(dont know why she believed it when she SAW it on my fucking livejournal) i dont know... it was stupid shit and it was stupid teenagecunt drama... so... i uh huhed and agreed like a douche to see her again... i just thought she wanted to have sex... really.
she came over... we watched a movie and cuddled and laughed and shit was perfect like it always is when we kiss and make up... we DIDN'T have sex... in fact she fell asleep and so did i and we woke up and it started all over again... perfect... cuddling... lunch at the park... it was awesome...
so... i get invited to a party at my friend steves house... all about it... i ask her if she wants to come.. she does... we go... everythings going good... until i see that fuckbag drew there.... he was with steves exes ex best friend... i dont know.. whatever... so shits going awesome... we drinking... talking to everyone... shes holding my hand everywhere we go... we make out a lot in front of everybody... i swear it was like we first started dating all over again... i was a little buzzed and so was she we went upstars... had sex on steves bathroom floor. went back downstairs and she said she was gonna get us both a beer from outside... cuz thats where the coooler was... and i was like alright cool... im talking to janet(friend from high school) and suddenly i realized 20 minutes went by... i excused myself... went outside and she was talking to that fucking creep and laughing and beeing flirty.... i seriously felt like i was standing there for what seemed like ever and just stared at her and she finally looked over at me and went from being all smiley and retarded to OHSHIT looking.
i rolled my eyes... and went back inside.... she didnt bother chasing me... so about 30 minutes later i went back outside and saw her and drew making out... so awesome... right after she went down on me... so jokes on him. anyway... whatever... i go back inside... find janet... and janets a good looking girl... not bad at all... so.... her and i are talking and shes laughing having a good time... and suddenly she kisses me and asks if i want to go upstairs... i said yeah... and we fooled around... and of course steve comes upstairs killing everything knocking on the door. "DUDE... SARAHS LOOKING FOR YOU...." im like whatever... keep making out with janet and suddenly theres more knocking and forewarn of "somebody told her she saw you two go upstairs together..." awesomme... suddenly the door flies open and its sarah...
shes fucking screaming by this point at half naked janet
"GET OFF MY FUCKING BOYFRIEND... YOU FUCKING CUNT.... YOU UGLY FUCKING WHORE..... WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE..."
i just started screaming... "WHY THE FUCK DO YOU CARE WHAT I DO.... YOU WERE FUCKING AROUND WITH DREW"
and she pulled her fucking "shes the victim" shit she always does... and started bawling...
and however this happened... i ended up taking her home... she cried all the way home and when we got to the front of her house... she called me every god damn name in the book... she told me i was worthless and made her feel like shit... told me the only reason shes anorexic is because of me... because i make her feel inadequate...
i just looked at her... and im like "what the fuck does this have to do with anything"
and she goes "you only like girls like janet, bethany, and rebecca... tall, long black hair hair, tattoos, and skinny..." i lost it... i went balastic.... i started screaming... " WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT.... YOUVE HAD LONG BLACK HAIR.... YOURE TALL.... YOURE SKINNY... AND EVEN IF YOU DONT HAVE MANY TATTOOS YOURE STILL TATTOOED AND BETHANY NEVER HAD FUCKING TATTTOOS.... YOU STUPID FUCKING CRAZY CUNT.... GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY CAR... I CANT AND WONT TAKE YOUR SHIT ANYMORE"
she then smacked me right across the face and i smacked her back and she then fucking leaned in a started kissing me.... i pushed off.... got out of my car... opened her door... and proceeded with a "get the fuck out of my car." she looked at me and tears streamed down her face and she goes "todd... please... i love you." i grabbed her arm and pulled her out and said "thats fine... start hating me then... you seem to do better without the dude who caauses your eating disorder and every other pyscho tendancies you have in your god damn pathetic little life..." got in my car and left... and guess what.... two days fucking later...
i see this fucking picture on her myspace and it says...
i love drew so much.... hes so perfect
want to know the saddest part...
i wake up every day... wishing i was dead... because i miss her...
fuck this. im out.
i give up... my heart seriously cant take this anymore. she doesnt care. wanna know that most fucked up part about it? ok... well... i'll give you the story...
after all those emails we sent more and more to each other and i told her i never wanted to see her again... and just like any other day... she called me up crying... spilling her guts about how beth told her everything. how beth supposedly knew all along(dont know why she believed it when she SAW it on my fucking livejournal) i dont know... it was stupid shit and it was stupid teenagecunt drama... so... i uh huhed and agreed like a douche to see her again... i just thought she wanted to have sex... really.
she came over... we watched a movie and cuddled and laughed and shit was perfect like it always is when we kiss and make up... we DIDN'T have sex... in fact she fell asleep and so did i and we woke up and it started all over again... perfect... cuddling... lunch at the park... it was awesome...
so... i get invited to a party at my friend steves house... all about it... i ask her if she wants to come.. she does... we go... everythings going good... until i see that fuckbag drew there.... he was with steves exes ex best friend... i dont know.. whatever... so shits going awesome... we drinking... talking to everyone... shes holding my hand everywhere we go... we make out a lot in front of everybody... i swear it was like we first started dating all over again... i was a little buzzed and so was she we went upstars... had sex on steves bathroom floor. went back downstairs and she said she was gonna get us both a beer from outside... cuz thats where the coooler was... and i was like alright cool... im talking to janet(friend from high school) and suddenly i realized 20 minutes went by... i excused myself... went outside and she was talking to that fucking creep and laughing and beeing flirty.... i seriously felt like i was standing there for what seemed like ever and just stared at her and she finally looked over at me and went from being all smiley and retarded to OHSHIT looking.
i rolled my eyes... and went back inside.... she didnt bother chasing me... so about 30 minutes later i went back outside and saw her and drew making out... so awesome... right after she went down on me... so jokes on him. anyway... whatever... i go back inside... find janet... and janets a good looking girl... not bad at all... so.... her and i are talking and shes laughing having a good time... and suddenly she kisses me and asks if i want to go upstairs... i said yeah... and we fooled around... and of course steve comes upstairs killing everything knocking on the door. "DUDE... SARAHS LOOKING FOR YOU...." im like whatever... keep making out with janet and suddenly theres more knocking and forewarn of "somebody told her she saw you two go upstairs together..." awesomme... suddenly the door flies open and its sarah...
shes fucking screaming by this point at half naked janet
"GET OFF MY FUCKING BOYFRIEND... YOU FUCKING CUNT.... YOU UGLY FUCKING WHORE..... WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE..."
i just started screaming... "WHY THE FUCK DO YOU CARE WHAT I DO.... YOU WERE FUCKING AROUND WITH DREW"
and she pulled her fucking "shes the victim" shit she always does... and started bawling...
and however this happened... i ended up taking her home... she cried all the way home and when we got to the front of her house... she called me every god damn name in the book... she told me i was worthless and made her feel like shit... told me the only reason shes anorexic is because of me... because i make her feel inadequate...
i just looked at her... and im like "what the fuck does this have to do with anything"
and she goes "you only like girls like janet, bethany, and rebecca... tall, long black hair hair, tattoos, and skinny..." i lost it... i went balastic.... i started screaming... " WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT.... YOUVE HAD LONG BLACK HAIR.... YOURE TALL.... YOURE SKINNY... AND EVEN IF YOU DONT HAVE MANY TATTOOS YOURE STILL TATTOOED AND BETHANY NEVER HAD FUCKING TATTTOOS.... YOU STUPID FUCKING CRAZY CUNT.... GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY CAR... I CANT AND WONT TAKE YOUR SHIT ANYMORE"
she then smacked me right across the face and i smacked her back and she then fucking leaned in a started kissing me.... i pushed off.... got out of my car... opened her door... and proceeded with a "get the fuck out of my car." she looked at me and tears streamed down her face and she goes "todd... please... i love you." i grabbed her arm and pulled her out and said "thats fine... start hating me then... you seem to do better without the dude who caauses your eating disorder and every other pyscho tendancies you have in your god damn pathetic little life..." got in my car and left... and guess what.... two days fucking later...
i see this fucking picture on her myspace and it says...
i love drew so much.... hes so perfect
want to know the saddest part...
i wake up every day... wishing i was dead... because i miss her...
fuck this. im out.