.feelin' better.
sorry about that lil moment of desparity yesterday. with so many changes this year has brought, it just hit me all at once yesterday. i just want some sort of stability. luckily today, and most everyday, i'm accepting of the changes that have occurred. it's not very often i let my dark emotions get the best of me.
jeff was really excited to see me this morning when he got home from work. he sure was talkative. :) i do hope that continues. however when we were talking about bills, he did mention that he needs to save up money for his next apartment's deposit. so i guess we're still getting seperate places after the rent is up. it really didn't upset me, surprisingly enough. yet, anyway. but i refuse to get upset wondering what's going to happen when that time comes. i know i'll be so broken hearted when i move out of here and will no longer be living with him. but i'm going to make the best of the time we have left together. and who's to say it'll end? who really knows? i'm just gonna do like i've done with everything that's happened this year... roll with the punches. nothing's broken me yet. and i don't think this will. i'll bounce back. i always do. ----- i really hope next year is better though.
anyway, today at work was good. i think i'm really gonna like this new job. i've not heard anything bad about this place from the people that've worked there. everyone there has worked there for at least a year or more. the poor girl that started with me yesterday bailed. she didn't show up today. bless her heart, she was like a deer caught in headlights right off the bat yesterday. i didn't really expect her to stick it out. i'll be honest, i was nervous this morning when i found out she wasn't coming back. i thought to myself, "maybe i should run while i have the chance?" (i'm just so apprehensive about another temp job going wrong. but hopefully the 3rd time is the charm.) but i stuck it out and i proved to myself that this is worth it. i was really concerned yesterday about how easy the job is. i really want something that's going to challenge me. but after talking it over and thinking it thru, no job is going to truly challenge me like i want. web design did. but i've learned i can't compare anything to that. it's like comparing your first love to your current. yeah, you just don't do that. so i think this job just might work out. :)
i need to take a shower and get to bed.
oh, i heard soemthing i'm not too happy about tonight. here's the story: jeff's gonna paint his face for tomorrow night's football game. well, his ex wife is bringing justin to the apartment so jeff can paint justin's face too. i kept a cool demeanor and pretended not to show i was thinking about that cunt being in MY home while i'm not here. (i'll be working til 7.) but it's cool. pieces of me are all over this place. so she can kiss my ass. and i'll be damned if i dare let jeff see that it bothers me. he's not "allowing" her here... she's just bringing justin over to get his face painted. but i'm still not happy about it.
anyway... shower time. now that aunt flo is finally gone... i just may take a nice "loooooooooong" shower. *winks* hey, a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do!
by the way, the new megadeth album is GREAT!
jeff was really excited to see me this morning when he got home from work. he sure was talkative. :) i do hope that continues. however when we were talking about bills, he did mention that he needs to save up money for his next apartment's deposit. so i guess we're still getting seperate places after the rent is up. it really didn't upset me, surprisingly enough. yet, anyway. but i refuse to get upset wondering what's going to happen when that time comes. i know i'll be so broken hearted when i move out of here and will no longer be living with him. but i'm going to make the best of the time we have left together. and who's to say it'll end? who really knows? i'm just gonna do like i've done with everything that's happened this year... roll with the punches. nothing's broken me yet. and i don't think this will. i'll bounce back. i always do. ----- i really hope next year is better though.
anyway, today at work was good. i think i'm really gonna like this new job. i've not heard anything bad about this place from the people that've worked there. everyone there has worked there for at least a year or more. the poor girl that started with me yesterday bailed. she didn't show up today. bless her heart, she was like a deer caught in headlights right off the bat yesterday. i didn't really expect her to stick it out. i'll be honest, i was nervous this morning when i found out she wasn't coming back. i thought to myself, "maybe i should run while i have the chance?" (i'm just so apprehensive about another temp job going wrong. but hopefully the 3rd time is the charm.) but i stuck it out and i proved to myself that this is worth it. i was really concerned yesterday about how easy the job is. i really want something that's going to challenge me. but after talking it over and thinking it thru, no job is going to truly challenge me like i want. web design did. but i've learned i can't compare anything to that. it's like comparing your first love to your current. yeah, you just don't do that. so i think this job just might work out. :)
i need to take a shower and get to bed.
oh, i heard soemthing i'm not too happy about tonight. here's the story: jeff's gonna paint his face for tomorrow night's football game. well, his ex wife is bringing justin to the apartment so jeff can paint justin's face too. i kept a cool demeanor and pretended not to show i was thinking about that cunt being in MY home while i'm not here. (i'll be working til 7.) but it's cool. pieces of me are all over this place. so she can kiss my ass. and i'll be damned if i dare let jeff see that it bothers me. he's not "allowing" her here... she's just bringing justin over to get his face painted. but i'm still not happy about it.
anyway... shower time. now that aunt flo is finally gone... i just may take a nice "loooooooooong" shower. *winks* hey, a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do!
by the way, the new megadeth album is GREAT!