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god, what the hell. justin is in jail again. his mom emailed me...he asked her to ask me if i would please write to him.
umm..
sure, of course i will. last time we talked he told me i was "the one that got away.."
all that was goign thru my mind was "well, thank god"
i mean i definetly feel for him. his whole life is gone. i can't even count how many felonies that is now. as much as i hate to say this about anyone, he will forever be a junkie.
after his initial arrest and him knowing he's going for 6 years, he STILL let heroin run his life. his shit-for-brains girlfriend andrea is an enabler, because they're "SO INLOVE"
no. that's not fucking love. that's two fucked up people that need each other for dope, and only feel "inlove" when they're high and happy...everything else is...it is exactly what justin and I used to be.
when me and justin were using there were lines i made sure we never crossed, once he got back with andrea there were no lines.
i mean, i'm just shocked that he never seems to learn his lesson. i know he wants to be a good person, and i also know he needs psychiatric help because of his depression, and he self-medicates with dope. but still WHAT THE FUCK...there's no going back from any of this. he's ruined his life complete. who knows how much more time they will add on because of them stealing a friggin car.
i'm so thankful i'm not going to ever be a part of that shit again....i'm thankful i DID manage to "get away"
what is there even left to say when i write to him...i'm not going to rub it into his face how much better my life is now....sure, he needs sympathy, but obviously after all this time and all the chances EVERYONE gave him, my sympathy is running thin.
in the end, it's just SAD. it's sad for me to see a 22 year old guy that had so much going for him, let it all go to shit.
umm..
sure, of course i will. last time we talked he told me i was "the one that got away.."
all that was goign thru my mind was "well, thank god"
i mean i definetly feel for him. his whole life is gone. i can't even count how many felonies that is now. as much as i hate to say this about anyone, he will forever be a junkie.
after his initial arrest and him knowing he's going for 6 years, he STILL let heroin run his life. his shit-for-brains girlfriend andrea is an enabler, because they're "SO INLOVE"
no. that's not fucking love. that's two fucked up people that need each other for dope, and only feel "inlove" when they're high and happy...everything else is...it is exactly what justin and I used to be.
when me and justin were using there were lines i made sure we never crossed, once he got back with andrea there were no lines.
i mean, i'm just shocked that he never seems to learn his lesson. i know he wants to be a good person, and i also know he needs psychiatric help because of his depression, and he self-medicates with dope. but still WHAT THE FUCK...there's no going back from any of this. he's ruined his life complete. who knows how much more time they will add on because of them stealing a friggin car.
i'm so thankful i'm not going to ever be a part of that shit again....i'm thankful i DID manage to "get away"
what is there even left to say when i write to him...i'm not going to rub it into his face how much better my life is now....sure, he needs sympathy, but obviously after all this time and all the chances EVERYONE gave him, my sympathy is running thin.
in the end, it's just SAD. it's sad for me to see a 22 year old guy that had so much going for him, let it all go to shit.