stupid girl
there is a check list of things i must do. i am slowly getting through them, though not at the pace i had hoped. and yet, here i am. i have another two hours by myself in which to do work before the boy gets home, and i am writing in my livejournal and trying to decide whether i should a) watch a movie b) play halo or c) play max payne 2. i should do more work. i should email the list of twenty theatre companies i have and see if they'll put me on their media list for reviews. i should finish the thank you letter to my father before my sister jumps right down my throat. i should be looking at costs for printing photographs for my exhibition. gah. tomorrow, i tell myself. tomorrow.
tomorrow i must book my car in for another $250 thing that needs to be fixed. tomorrow i need to make an appointment to view my exhibition space. tomorrow i need to set up photo-shoot times with models. tomorrow i also needs to go to work.
in other news. i spoke to him about that person in his life that was making things difficult for me. we sorted things out and although right now it seems okay, i cannot help but think that given a few weeks we will be back to where we started. cher and i spoke briefly on the matter tonight, wondering how it is they can be so close when no one really knows who he is, especially the boy. but anyway.. things between us are wonderful. i am still letting go, but he is helping me as much as he can. abd he is being more truthful, which helps so much more than he realises.
i am looking into entering some poetry competitions so i can take another step towards being published. i am also looking into selling some of my old things on ebay so i can make some money. i am dreadfully low right now. soon i will be in too much debt to get out of easily.
look at how boring i have become. i think it is time for food, maybe an episode of criminal intent, and then perhaps a movie... or a game. i still haven't decided.
xo;