im back
wow, its been so long sence i have posted in this journal. and i feel bad.. so im sorry to all my friends.. forgive me???
well anyway i promise to write more.
today is the 3rd day of my fast. already i have lost 6 pounds. and i feel so great.
i have no idea how long i wanna fast, origanaly me and my friend Kara were going to fast for 40 days, because thats how long Jesus fasted (were not religious, we just think that jesus is a pimp) but she got caught, so im fasting by my self. so im just going untill i lose at least 20 pounds. so 20 days at the least.
one of the GREATEST thinspirations for me, is going shopping. first of all, nothing fits when your fat, and you get to see how fat you really are, and when you shop you get to see all those rail thin girls. there is my thinspiration. i makes me not want to ever eat.
and my dad has his new girl friend who is living here, and she is so nice, i like her, but she is soooooo thin. like extreamly, and she likes to show it off, so i have thinspiration living with me.
i cannot eat around my dad and her, becasue i feel so fat. and my dad dosent make me eat. he'll ask (sometimes) if i want dinner, and i'll say no. and he'll just walk away. its great. and even if he did know that im fasting i dont really think he would care becasuse he thinks im fat. like he always tells me that im going to get diabetes. and i need to get some exersice. the other night, him, his girl friend, and my brother, were all eating icecream and they never asked me if i wanted any. which is good, becasue i wouln't have eaten it anyway. but even if i had gone and got some he would comment on how i shouldnt eat that becase it will make me gain more weight. and when i eat he always makes comments on how "theres too many carbs in that" or "thats not good for you, it'll make you gain more weight" bastard
thanks for the thinspiration, now i just want it more..
well anyway i promise to write more.
today is the 3rd day of my fast. already i have lost 6 pounds. and i feel so great.
i have no idea how long i wanna fast, origanaly me and my friend Kara were going to fast for 40 days, because thats how long Jesus fasted (were not religious, we just think that jesus is a pimp) but she got caught, so im fasting by my self. so im just going untill i lose at least 20 pounds. so 20 days at the least.
one of the GREATEST thinspirations for me, is going shopping. first of all, nothing fits when your fat, and you get to see how fat you really are, and when you shop you get to see all those rail thin girls. there is my thinspiration. i makes me not want to ever eat.
and my dad has his new girl friend who is living here, and she is so nice, i like her, but she is soooooo thin. like extreamly, and she likes to show it off, so i have thinspiration living with me.
i cannot eat around my dad and her, becasue i feel so fat. and my dad dosent make me eat. he'll ask (sometimes) if i want dinner, and i'll say no. and he'll just walk away. its great. and even if he did know that im fasting i dont really think he would care becasuse he thinks im fat. like he always tells me that im going to get diabetes. and i need to get some exersice. the other night, him, his girl friend, and my brother, were all eating icecream and they never asked me if i wanted any. which is good, becasue i wouln't have eaten it anyway. but even if i had gone and got some he would comment on how i shouldnt eat that becase it will make me gain more weight. and when i eat he always makes comments on how "theres too many carbs in that" or "thats not good for you, it'll make you gain more weight" bastard
thanks for the thinspiration, now i just want it more..