Tumbling in the Chambers of the human heart
It all happened in a week with him and by the end of that week I thought I lost him. But I was seemingly wrong. Nothing has changed. He baptised me in the faith of God and laid his hands upon my head to recieve the holy ghost into my life. In that same night going home from a church President meeting we held hands for the first time and things went on from there. That was a sunday. On a Tuesday we sat together during a lesson and under the couch pillows held hands more. The next time we met again we helds hands more and he tickled me a bit. I fed him and his Companion in the kitchen alone with him putting away silverware and dishes he hugged me, then a few minutes later we kissed. =). That was a wednesday. Thursday, i was sick. He held my hand and rubbed my back. All of this we tried to keep secret from the other two in the room and everyone else. But we knew that they knew what we were doing. Saturday he gave me a letter saying that he was srry but he couldnt do it anymore. It hurt me most that he thought he was holding me bak. But I wrote him bak saying he wasnt, but was actually helping me out. Sunday at church, I didnt sit with him like we normally do, but we did talk and i gave him the letter I had written him in reply to his. Some hours later on Sunday after church he came by with a pamplet for me to read and a letter in reply to mine. He told me he liked me and that I was awesome. Even gave me his home address so we could keep talking when he went bak home. Saw him again some day this week and we played footies with eachother and kissed again when we were alone in the kitchen. It all happens in the kitchen, LOL!! and today we played footies and we made out in the kitchen and bathroom lol. Hes just so blood considerate of me. He so gentlemanly. Never doing things I dont want or pushing me into things out of bounds. A hug, kiss, hand-holding and playing of feet is all it is. Things that were never anything big to me are huge when it comes to him. Everything magnified. Hes also the first guy thats come to my height wen we kiss, instead of me having to go to his, only when I go to kiss him first. I feel like a person with him, not invisible or insignificant. I feel important. For hours after he leaves I hop, skip and dance around so happy and full up with great emotions, something thats never happened to me like this before. Just have to make sure I dont overanalyze or move to quick. Id be beyond crushed if I lost him. Id do anything and everything to see him smile and be happy. Id light the sky a blaze if it called for it. <3