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[vileoxidation]

I wish so much sometimes. I wish I could be alright. I wish that the overwhelming sadness of the world didn't hurt me so much. I wish that not everything made me sad, even things as stupid as sad things on TV. The pain and suffering I see around me are so deep, and it cuts me to the core not being able to do anything. I wish I could make a difference, and stop some of the pain and the hurt in the world. I wish that I wasn't crying as I wrote this because I am so sad. I wish I could help. I wish I was a good daughter. I wish I wasn't so lazy. I wish people would be nice to other people, and especially elderly people. Its so sad to see an old person who is sad. That's the worst for me right now, I think. Thinking about poor sad old people and then thinking about my poor parents, who I love so dearly but who I have failed so miserably.

Why do I have such a strong sense of humanity? I hate this.