What the fuck is next?
Ohhh... Lately i have been so bogged down with both meagerly paid and unpaid works. The unpaid stuff comes from my involvement with the Brown Berets -- which has garnered a fairly high level position for me in our state. It has been exhaustive lately. One of the main reasons for this has been that the main dude is middle-aged, and therefore mainly communicates with us via land line. P\He lives in a rural area, so this and internet are really the only forms of contact we have, and he prefers phone over internet. He's a cool guy, but talking to him for at least an hour at least every day has been tough.
I have been doing a lot of collateral work for the organization as well, volunteering so many of my services. I've found this is a bad habit us graphic designers have; we'll take a look at something poorly designed, and volunteer ourselves to overhaul it (often for free) simply because we can't stand such eyesores.
Needless to say, my experience joining the Brown Berets has been really interesting, filled with a commoradory amongst an unlikely set of characters.
Work has been really, really shitty lately. Since they announced the "wage freeze," my morale has been in the sewer. I've had to deal with shitty ad reps, one of which seems to have been put on this planet to make me miserable. I've been dealing with a boss, whose personal credo is "ignorance is bliss," and as he's gotten more and more fixated on gym life he has gotten more shallow. Plus i'm sick of his little "work wife" situation with fat angela. That lady is fucking annoying, and it's not just me who has noticed it. My new co-worker brought it up to me!
And the new co-worker; she's nice, and sweet, and we talk about a lot of things. But since she's started, there has been something about her that doesn't seem to sit well with me. She seems to have one of those fakey attitudes, and has the ability to butter people up outside of our department. She's obviously street smart, and knows not to show any discontent around any of these people. I'm different, because my personality is and always has been honest and transparent; what you see is what you'll get, and you may not be thrilled about it, but you'll always know that i'm am a genuine person, through and through.
As a friend, i like her...really i do. But i'm not sure how to feel about her as a co-worker. Sometimes i thinks she's trying to show me up. I'M NOT FUCKING EAGER TO HAVE TO PROVE MYSELF AT MY JOB, WHEN THAT'S WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING ALL THESE YEARS!!!!!! I just hope she gets jaded and frustrated like me, but i know she won't. She wasn't working before this.
I'm just so sick and pissed off over so many things lately; My sister is another disappointment. She has gone full force into another relationship not only before the ink on her divorce was dry, but while they were still married. That, i don't care about, actually. But the guy lives in L.A., and she has flown out to meet him about 4 or 5 times already. My sister is selfish and a user, because she was a bridezilla when she married joe -- expecting us except him unconditionally for years. She then left her husband, moving back home with us, with almost no notice. She could have lived here rent free, but said she can't live under the same roof as my mom, and opted to move in with her dad, after he'd just gotten through with a divorce. Prior to that, when my sister was married, my mom had been paying her full coverage car insurance payment, and her phone bill.
When my sister moved in with her dad, he told her she'd have to pay $100 a month, and it seems that all she's doing is living there and spending her student loan stipends on her stupid little trips out to Cali to see her long distance boyfriend.
Not only do i think my sister is being a retard by squandering her twenties on a stupid idealogy of romance, but i am hurt and disappointed that she doesn't try to figure things out and stake out for herself. I have repeatedly offered to go in on a house with her. I have offered this because I DONT have two incomes to rely upon, and still want to buy a house. My thinking had been that there would be fewer people i would trust more than her to share a mortgage with until both or one of use could use the equity to stake out on our own homes. But she is stupid, and enamored with her new romance -- she even posted pictures of her kissing this guy on her myspace and her facebook. NO ONE WANTS TO SEE PICTURES OF YOU KISSING SOMEONE, NO ONE. This is an internet faux pas.
My sister's actions just underscore how people disappoint me and fall below my expectations of them. My expectations aren't high. I just think family should have allegiance and loyalty toward one-another. I believe that family should be a system of kindred standing to support one-another, and protect one-another. No one else seems to have that belief to the extent that i do. If i ever start a family, this is how it will be.
I have been doing a lot of collateral work for the organization as well, volunteering so many of my services. I've found this is a bad habit us graphic designers have; we'll take a look at something poorly designed, and volunteer ourselves to overhaul it (often for free) simply because we can't stand such eyesores.
Needless to say, my experience joining the Brown Berets has been really interesting, filled with a commoradory amongst an unlikely set of characters.
Work has been really, really shitty lately. Since they announced the "wage freeze," my morale has been in the sewer. I've had to deal with shitty ad reps, one of which seems to have been put on this planet to make me miserable. I've been dealing with a boss, whose personal credo is "ignorance is bliss," and as he's gotten more and more fixated on gym life he has gotten more shallow. Plus i'm sick of his little "work wife" situation with fat angela. That lady is fucking annoying, and it's not just me who has noticed it. My new co-worker brought it up to me!
And the new co-worker; she's nice, and sweet, and we talk about a lot of things. But since she's started, there has been something about her that doesn't seem to sit well with me. She seems to have one of those fakey attitudes, and has the ability to butter people up outside of our department. She's obviously street smart, and knows not to show any discontent around any of these people. I'm different, because my personality is and always has been honest and transparent; what you see is what you'll get, and you may not be thrilled about it, but you'll always know that i'm am a genuine person, through and through.
As a friend, i like her...really i do. But i'm not sure how to feel about her as a co-worker. Sometimes i thinks she's trying to show me up. I'M NOT FUCKING EAGER TO HAVE TO PROVE MYSELF AT MY JOB, WHEN THAT'S WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING ALL THESE YEARS!!!!!! I just hope she gets jaded and frustrated like me, but i know she won't. She wasn't working before this.
I'm just so sick and pissed off over so many things lately; My sister is another disappointment. She has gone full force into another relationship not only before the ink on her divorce was dry, but while they were still married. That, i don't care about, actually. But the guy lives in L.A., and she has flown out to meet him about 4 or 5 times already. My sister is selfish and a user, because she was a bridezilla when she married joe -- expecting us except him unconditionally for years. She then left her husband, moving back home with us, with almost no notice. She could have lived here rent free, but said she can't live under the same roof as my mom, and opted to move in with her dad, after he'd just gotten through with a divorce. Prior to that, when my sister was married, my mom had been paying her full coverage car insurance payment, and her phone bill.
When my sister moved in with her dad, he told her she'd have to pay $100 a month, and it seems that all she's doing is living there and spending her student loan stipends on her stupid little trips out to Cali to see her long distance boyfriend.
Not only do i think my sister is being a retard by squandering her twenties on a stupid idealogy of romance, but i am hurt and disappointed that she doesn't try to figure things out and stake out for herself. I have repeatedly offered to go in on a house with her. I have offered this because I DONT have two incomes to rely upon, and still want to buy a house. My thinking had been that there would be fewer people i would trust more than her to share a mortgage with until both or one of use could use the equity to stake out on our own homes. But she is stupid, and enamored with her new romance -- she even posted pictures of her kissing this guy on her myspace and her facebook. NO ONE WANTS TO SEE PICTURES OF YOU KISSING SOMEONE, NO ONE. This is an internet faux pas.
My sister's actions just underscore how people disappoint me and fall below my expectations of them. My expectations aren't high. I just think family should have allegiance and loyalty toward one-another. I believe that family should be a system of kindred standing to support one-another, and protect one-another. No one else seems to have that belief to the extent that i do. If i ever start a family, this is how it will be.