Why does it suck
Why does it hurt so much when the one you're in love with is with somebody else? When you simply cannot get that person out of your system... and all you think about is how you would be perfect together with them. When you are so in love with a person that part of you wishes they would stay together with the other person... just so you can see them happy (but still believing they would be happier with you than anyone else). When you find that one person that fits all the qualities you've always wanted in a person (and a couple that you didn't even thought about wanting :))... when you can't even think about continuing on in your life without them in it, be it as a friend or lover, that you just suck it up and put on a smile and say "good for you", when they talk about their boyfriend. And you don't even want their boyfriend to be mean to them, as that would hurt them. When you just want to scream "MY GOD, wake up and see what's right in front of you!!". When part of you would settle for just one night... for just one kiss... just to feel them...
When you get the feeling that if you had just met that person a week earlier (yes! a friggin' week!), things would have been quite different... When they are the first thing you think about when you wake up and the last thing on your mind at night. When you feel like a dork regardless of what you say. When you just want to list all the bad things and reasons why it won't work out in the long run with the current boyfriend, but are too scared of losing that person in your life if you do. When you can only come up with a lame excuse, when they ask you, why you don't want to call when they are with their boyfriend ("I don't want to interrupt you time together!" D'OH!!)... When you feel like you can't compete with the boyfriend (not in looks but in personal matters... the boyfriend is having weird heart problems and his mother tried to commit suicide twice last week... how the hell do I compete with that??)...
WHY THE HELL DOES LOVE SUCK SO DAMN MUCH SOME TIMES??
(normally I hate posting personal thought, but I really needed to vent... feel free to comment)
When you get the feeling that if you had just met that person a week earlier (yes! a friggin' week!), things would have been quite different... When they are the first thing you think about when you wake up and the last thing on your mind at night. When you feel like a dork regardless of what you say. When you just want to list all the bad things and reasons why it won't work out in the long run with the current boyfriend, but are too scared of losing that person in your life if you do. When you can only come up with a lame excuse, when they ask you, why you don't want to call when they are with their boyfriend ("I don't want to interrupt you time together!" D'OH!!)... When you feel like you can't compete with the boyfriend (not in looks but in personal matters... the boyfriend is having weird heart problems and his mother tried to commit suicide twice last week... how the hell do I compete with that??)...
WHY THE HELL DOES LOVE SUCK SO DAMN MUCH SOME TIMES??
(normally I hate posting personal thought, but I really needed to vent... feel free to comment)