MYV ATTACK! Lol~
Wow, alot has happen over the last few days. Me and Matt like broke up, then got back together again. Though I really don't think that things will ever be the same again. He used to do anything for me, he used to always hug me and kiss me like he couldn't keep his hands of me but now, he seems like he can't be botherd with me unless of course we are having sex.
I really don't know what to do anymore, ending it is far to painful and I love him way too much for that. But how can this be a relationship if it is only one sided love? I can't even confront him about this because I know that we'll just end up having another fight. And I'm far too stressed out as it is to have another fight like that again I don't think that I could take it. Half the time it just feels like I am on the edge. He doesn't invole me any more, and my heart is breaking. It brings to mind suicide And self harming again. Matt is only with me because he doesn't want MY death on his neck. But its not true I would much rather him tell me to my face, that he "doesn't love me Its not working, i'm sorry", than me thinking about this all the time, y'know?
Of course if he was to say that i'm be totally fucking depressed, BUT I wouldn't Kill myself. Noway. I'd feel so depressed and down, but at least he would be honest, and that would help me to just move on. I should really tell him all this, Huh? But sometimes I just have to go over it in my head so I know that It doesn't sound like a load of shit.
Sigh. Life is tough. D: and i'm only 16.
Did you know that Britons teenagers are some of the most depressed in the world and we have a HUGE suicide rate.
Oh, I've been bitched about AGAIN, well it was only a matter of time. Bex, the Fucktard who needs to grow the fuck up. She started saying all this shit that I am to blame for HER anniorexia, Saying I am provoking it because I USED TO BE, o o;;;
I swear, one day and one day soon, I'm an gonna' smack that little bitch so hard, Her little tiny face will cave in. She was such a bitch to me when I told her that I was a recovering annorix (yes I can't spell it) She was like "Oh don't eat that, are you sure you should eat that, you might gain some pounds...." and then she goes around tell people that total oppiste that it was ME Who did all that OMG! UUUGHHHH Little fuck! She better fucking watch what she says around me, because one little FUCKING word out of line and I will kick her teeth in. I hate her, I REALLLY Fucking hate her, She thinks she this Mature older woman of wisdom, when really she's this stupid little girl who needs a fucking good slap.
UGH GR GR GR GRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!! D
I really don't know what to do anymore, ending it is far to painful and I love him way too much for that. But how can this be a relationship if it is only one sided love? I can't even confront him about this because I know that we'll just end up having another fight. And I'm far too stressed out as it is to have another fight like that again I don't think that I could take it. Half the time it just feels like I am on the edge. He doesn't invole me any more, and my heart is breaking. It brings to mind suicide And self harming again. Matt is only with me because he doesn't want MY death on his neck. But its not true I would much rather him tell me to my face, that he "doesn't love me Its not working, i'm sorry", than me thinking about this all the time, y'know?
Of course if he was to say that i'm be totally fucking depressed, BUT I wouldn't Kill myself. Noway. I'd feel so depressed and down, but at least he would be honest, and that would help me to just move on. I should really tell him all this, Huh? But sometimes I just have to go over it in my head so I know that It doesn't sound like a load of shit.
Sigh. Life is tough. D: and i'm only 16.
Did you know that Britons teenagers are some of the most depressed in the world and we have a HUGE suicide rate.
Oh, I've been bitched about AGAIN, well it was only a matter of time. Bex, the Fucktard who needs to grow the fuck up. She started saying all this shit that I am to blame for HER anniorexia, Saying I am provoking it because I USED TO BE, o o;;;
I swear, one day and one day soon, I'm an gonna' smack that little bitch so hard, Her little tiny face will cave in. She was such a bitch to me when I told her that I was a recovering annorix (yes I can't spell it) She was like "Oh don't eat that, are you sure you should eat that, you might gain some pounds...." and then she goes around tell people that total oppiste that it was ME Who did all that OMG! UUUGHHHH Little fuck! She better fucking watch what she says around me, because one little FUCKING word out of line and I will kick her teeth in. I hate her, I REALLLY Fucking hate her, She thinks she this Mature older woman of wisdom, when really she's this stupid little girl who needs a fucking good slap.
UGH GR GR GR GRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!! D