Something wrong with me.
Srsly I think that theres something wrong with me. I try to make friends and be as normal as I can. But still get ignored and forgotten and sometimes when I'm talking to people they seem really bored. Why bother anymore. I don't have any friends anyway.
My boyfriends hates me, I have no friends and my family are sick of me. Quite a life i've made for myself. I feel like my heart is ripped in two sometimes. I hate it, I feel like I have no one, at ALL.
I don't know whats wrong with me... is it the fact that I have Bi polar disorder or do people just hate the way I am because ... this is how I am, I don't understand it sometimes. Matt lately just wont give me the time of day. He ignores what I want, he has even stopped saying nice things to me, I have to ask, I shouldn't have to ask. I know what it is, he's bored of me, no sick of me. I drove him away like I do everyone else. This is no way to live.
The fact that i'm only 16 and I've been through so much already makes me think that the worst is yet to come. There is more, More fucking people who will screw me around and hurt me. More ways of trying to kill myself, I'VE TRIED TO KILL MYSELF 3 FUCKING TIMES! How the hell Am I still alive! And WTF is wrong with me, When I tell people all I want is a hug and for someone t tell me that I'll be ok. But that NEVER happens. Not even the first time people are sick Of me and sick of what I do. There is no point to a life like this.
Matt, what is your problem, do you hate me so much?
Does everyone hate me so much that you want to drive me to KILL myself?
Well fine.
Your fucking succseding. Well fucking done to you!
My boyfriends hates me, I have no friends and my family are sick of me. Quite a life i've made for myself. I feel like my heart is ripped in two sometimes. I hate it, I feel like I have no one, at ALL.
I don't know whats wrong with me... is it the fact that I have Bi polar disorder or do people just hate the way I am because ... this is how I am, I don't understand it sometimes. Matt lately just wont give me the time of day. He ignores what I want, he has even stopped saying nice things to me, I have to ask, I shouldn't have to ask. I know what it is, he's bored of me, no sick of me. I drove him away like I do everyone else. This is no way to live.
The fact that i'm only 16 and I've been through so much already makes me think that the worst is yet to come. There is more, More fucking people who will screw me around and hurt me. More ways of trying to kill myself, I'VE TRIED TO KILL MYSELF 3 FUCKING TIMES! How the hell Am I still alive! And WTF is wrong with me, When I tell people all I want is a hug and for someone t tell me that I'll be ok. But that NEVER happens. Not even the first time people are sick Of me and sick of what I do. There is no point to a life like this.
Matt, what is your problem, do you hate me so much?
Does everyone hate me so much that you want to drive me to KILL myself?
Well fine.
Your fucking succseding. Well fucking done to you!