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Feeling overwhelmed this week. It's not just all the tasks I have on the list, it's the uncertainties that are getting to me. We work really hard, and I always trusted that things would be ok. This summer's conventions were disappointing on the financial front. Sales down, booth costs for next year higher anyway. It's a bit demoralizing. We pick ourselves up and continue, but now you know that there's a chance you can fail. The way this country works now, I'm not so sure anymore. The US economy has been bad before, and it's similar unbridled greed that led it to the market crash and Great Depression. It feels very much like we've all gotten into a mine cart, and we're hurtling into the darkness, praying that the tracks won't run out. I'm having a truly Lovecraftian moment. I am realizing I can never go back to a time before the moment when I discovered an awful truth. I just hope the knots in my gut will go away sometime this year. It feels like the only time I don't have a sick feeling in my stomach is when I'm engrossed in a book. Even though I don't really have time to read, I have been reading Game of Thrones book 1. It's really interesting to see how faithful the HBO series is, well 98% of the time anyway.