The End
"Something has got to change and for that to happen we have to change it" *Crack* That is the sound of two hearts breaking as Josh and I decide that we're better off alone.
Its difficult to say exactly where we went wrong. We've been arguing about the same things over and over for as long as I remember. The last couple of weeks I've been distant and sometimes I wasn't at home when he got back from work. The night before the break-up I was at a house warming party, without Josh. I asked him if I could go and he was fine with it, then he wasn't, then he was, then he wasn't. He ended up following me to the party where we had a huge argument and he told me to pack my bags and leave. I spent the whole night wondering why I was still with him, why he was still with me. The next morning I got home and started to pack. He asked what I was doing so I told him, "You told me to leave." He looked away from and I continued. "Maybe its for the best." These words were never spoken but the thought was with both of us. I said to him. "The way I see it, you want me to be something I'm not and I don't think I'm able to change." He nodded. "Something has got to change and for that to happen we have to change it." "Yeah. You're right." He said. He asked me where I would go and what I would do, told me he'd never stop loving me and that he'd always be there for me. I told him the same, "But don't contact me to begin with. It'll be too hard." We cried we hugged and I left.
I'm hoping that I can rise from the ashes. That this break up will force me to get back on my feet and support myself. I hope that I will grow as a person because of this. I hope he does too.
I don't know how long it will take for me to get over this. When I'm around people I get distracted and can carry on like I'm fine, but when I'm alone, the tears wont stop coming. But I don't want to dwell on what was and what could've been. It was great for the most part but it was time for it to end. Much like this post. Thanks for reading.
Blessed Be
Hawk
P.s Ashley, I'm sorry but obviously this means we wont be moving in with you. It also means I've stolen my room back. We'll sort something out though, don't worry.
Its difficult to say exactly where we went wrong. We've been arguing about the same things over and over for as long as I remember. The last couple of weeks I've been distant and sometimes I wasn't at home when he got back from work. The night before the break-up I was at a house warming party, without Josh. I asked him if I could go and he was fine with it, then he wasn't, then he was, then he wasn't. He ended up following me to the party where we had a huge argument and he told me to pack my bags and leave. I spent the whole night wondering why I was still with him, why he was still with me. The next morning I got home and started to pack. He asked what I was doing so I told him, "You told me to leave." He looked away from and I continued. "Maybe its for the best." These words were never spoken but the thought was with both of us. I said to him. "The way I see it, you want me to be something I'm not and I don't think I'm able to change." He nodded. "Something has got to change and for that to happen we have to change it." "Yeah. You're right." He said. He asked me where I would go and what I would do, told me he'd never stop loving me and that he'd always be there for me. I told him the same, "But don't contact me to begin with. It'll be too hard." We cried we hugged and I left.
I'm hoping that I can rise from the ashes. That this break up will force me to get back on my feet and support myself. I hope that I will grow as a person because of this. I hope he does too.
I don't know how long it will take for me to get over this. When I'm around people I get distracted and can carry on like I'm fine, but when I'm alone, the tears wont stop coming. But I don't want to dwell on what was and what could've been. It was great for the most part but it was time for it to end. Much like this post. Thanks for reading.
Blessed Be
Hawk
P.s Ashley, I'm sorry but obviously this means we wont be moving in with you. It also means I've stolen my room back. We'll sort something out though, don't worry.