the trick is to be the one behind the wheel
the last few weeks have been so emotionally and mentally fulfilling. yet somehow, I can't even begin to grasp onto them long enough to attempt an explanation or even understand it fully on my own.. at least not in any way that I might be able to say is accurate. my dear friend John has made me aware that every week I endure is "crazy" (at least that's my take on things! haha). and it might be true that nothing particularly out of the ordinary has been occuring, but I suppose that with each passing week, my eyes are opened just a teensy bit wider. I see things more as they are, in a far less romantic sense of the truth that I am used to. and it's crazy! the more I know, the more chaos seems to be the explanation. the more random things are. the more provocative and alluring people seem to be. my life is as that old cliché translates.. the world is opening up before me. swallow me! ingest, integrate! I feel like I am a part of it. I am connected somehow in a way in which I wasn't before. I wish I could pinpoint the sentiment and hand you the roadmap. but satisfaction such as this has to be stumbled upon whilst steering your own course.