Can this shit really be for real......
Well let see tomorrow I have HUGE exam and I am fucking off like usually. I am beginning to think I am trying to fuck things up. I am really scared about this exam and I have been studying for the last week but this teacher I think on some levels like to "trick" people that really scares me.
On the food front.....
Well today was a totally waste and on some levels I wish I was 15 again because when I use to feel pain like this I would just slip into a bath and cut myself with the extacto knife I took from the science lab. I miss the self control I use to have and I crave it like a crack head walking past their favorite drug house. I am still the crack head walking by but know I go to the ally down the street and suck a random guy off for 10 dollars so I can go get my crack.
I guess this is a good thing that today wasnt good because I am ready to fast and tomorrow if Friday so I will have a nice long 4 day weekend to get into it:-) We do have a BIG picnic to go to on the 5th but I think I will be able to be "creative" my last fast I went 6 days and I am aiming for 10 days.
Well I went and bought some diet aids(this is what I get my kick out of diet aids and laxie shopping) I got this water called SKINNY WATER http://www.skinnywater.com it was 7.99 at Super Target for 6 of them but I am excited to use it durning my fast. It is suppose to taste just like water but we will see I am going to start it tomorrow. If it works then it will be GREAT and help me through my fast. A DJ on the radio was talking about it and said it really worked for him. We will see.....
Well I am off to try to get some more studying done. I might have to put on Breakfast at Tiffanys. I love the movie and it makes me happy, and it is the perfect movie to start out a fast to.
Nic!!! I TIRED TO POST ON YOUR SITE TWICE AND FOR SOME DUMB REASON IT WASNT WORKING:-( I WILL SEND YOU A E-MAIL TOMORROW AFTER SCHOOL
On the food front.....
Well today was a totally waste and on some levels I wish I was 15 again because when I use to feel pain like this I would just slip into a bath and cut myself with the extacto knife I took from the science lab. I miss the self control I use to have and I crave it like a crack head walking past their favorite drug house. I am still the crack head walking by but know I go to the ally down the street and suck a random guy off for 10 dollars so I can go get my crack.
I guess this is a good thing that today wasnt good because I am ready to fast and tomorrow if Friday so I will have a nice long 4 day weekend to get into it:-) We do have a BIG picnic to go to on the 5th but I think I will be able to be "creative" my last fast I went 6 days and I am aiming for 10 days.
Well I went and bought some diet aids(this is what I get my kick out of diet aids and laxie shopping) I got this water called SKINNY WATER http://www.skinnywater.com it was 7.99 at Super Target for 6 of them but I am excited to use it durning my fast. It is suppose to taste just like water but we will see I am going to start it tomorrow. If it works then it will be GREAT and help me through my fast. A DJ on the radio was talking about it and said it really worked for him. We will see.....
Well I am off to try to get some more studying done. I might have to put on Breakfast at Tiffanys. I love the movie and it makes me happy, and it is the perfect movie to start out a fast to.
Nic!!! I TIRED TO POST ON YOUR SITE TWICE AND FOR SOME DUMB REASON IT WASNT WORKING:-( I WILL SEND YOU A E-MAIL TOMORROW AFTER SCHOOL