I'll put a spell on you...
This past weekend has been pretty damn hectic. I’m sure I’m not the only one to feel this as it seems to be the woe of every college student as the semester draws to a close. I spent the entire weekend reading about the Marquis de Sade. I read a full biography, as well as another 60 pages out of another. All I did was curl up in bed and read while taking notes, with a break here and there for food and sleep. It’s just so crazy. I’ve been stressing out about my presentation on Sade for a while now. I just feel like I need to do him proper justice, so how the hell was I supposed to cram in enough information to properly speak about the man in which the term “sadism” was based? No one in the class had a clue who Sade was, so I had to start from the basics.
This morning was the presentation and I was nervous as hell. My hands were shaking and I was just a mess. I got up there though, and rambled on for a good 20 minutes, which ended up being five minutes past the maximum allowance. I focused so much on the zeitgeist and I had to rush through the little information of his actual journals I had. The class seemed pretty interesting. The guy before me was quite dull, so their eyes just came to life as I was speaking about anal intercourse and brutally beating prostitutes. I guess my moment to shine will be my paper. I got back my refined thesis today from Dr. Buck and wrote “ A+! THIS IS ENGLISH MAJOR MATERIAL!!” It really made my morning. I was just… proud of myself.
I really just can’t for the semester to be over. I’m ready for the summer. I’m ready to go on vacation and get away. I’m ready to work and start making money so I can save up for England in the Spring of 2009. Jesus.
I’m still feeling a bit down. I seem to fluctuate with my moods. I don’t really know where I’m going or what I’m doing as far as my heart is concerned. I suppose I’ll have to wait it out and see if anything comes for me.
Read a poem today. September 1, 1939 by W. H. Auden
“All I have is a voice to undo the folding lie.”
“We Must Love One Another Or Die.”
This morning was the presentation and I was nervous as hell. My hands were shaking and I was just a mess. I got up there though, and rambled on for a good 20 minutes, which ended up being five minutes past the maximum allowance. I focused so much on the zeitgeist and I had to rush through the little information of his actual journals I had. The class seemed pretty interesting. The guy before me was quite dull, so their eyes just came to life as I was speaking about anal intercourse and brutally beating prostitutes. I guess my moment to shine will be my paper. I got back my refined thesis today from Dr. Buck and wrote “ A+! THIS IS ENGLISH MAJOR MATERIAL!!” It really made my morning. I was just… proud of myself.
I really just can’t for the semester to be over. I’m ready for the summer. I’m ready to go on vacation and get away. I’m ready to work and start making money so I can save up for England in the Spring of 2009. Jesus.
I’m still feeling a bit down. I seem to fluctuate with my moods. I don’t really know where I’m going or what I’m doing as far as my heart is concerned. I suppose I’ll have to wait it out and see if anything comes for me.
Read a poem today. September 1, 1939 by W. H. Auden
“All I have is a voice to undo the folding lie.”
“We Must Love One Another Or Die.”