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I spend most nights with my girlfriend, and don't have the urge to share - or go out - as much. I lament I don't get more gaming done, for instance.
A distant friend (acquaintance?) noted that today everyone is an expert in the european union, while last week they were legal experts in rape and sexual assault charges, then parenting experts with regard to neglect, alligator risks, and zoo enclosures.
I got in a lot of trouble, including at home, pointing out the "rapist" was actually a sexual assaultist and addressing other details.
We're awash in instant strongly-held opinions based on headlines, devoid of context, details, and analysis. The analysis cycle is generally just digging up reasons to support your initial emotional impression, and outrage at people who voice other opinions. I'm guilty of this too:
I had a cousin who was instrumental in writing up the documents that made up the foundation of the EU. I barely remember him as I was a dumb and bad kid, but I remember him first as my funny cousin, then my nerdy cousin who confused me because I was so cool (a stoner, man) compared to him, finally seeing him discuss the legal and political complexities of the EU formation as his wife and he celebrated their first-born with family.
I keep lamenting family and not actually reaching out.
But my strongly held feelings on the UK and EU? They're really incomplete. I had an opportunity to really learn the workings of the EU, but did not. I don't understand it now except as general concepts - like most, I rely on my proven expert's opinions. I criticize this trend, but I also feel justified in relying on my experts - I've see Krugman argue his points so well, and cite data so often, I have a trust of his opinions. Others trust FOX, and I've seen repeatedly how that organization is caught lying and misleading. My behavior...is it really so different? I don't see successful attacks on Krugman (Mother Jones is a pile of crap, though) so is my reliance fair?
House: I'm tired of updating. Move in fine of $1k May 8 has been multiplied so many times I'm nervous. It's another $500 / wk since June 1. I'm worried about the low balance, though he does keep working - It. Is. Still. A. Trickle. The kitchen is mostly done except counters, and I can't shop for granite until he gets the measurements. FIOS got hooked up Thur in my empty house, so now my home phone doesn't work here. Jordan says he fired another employee this past week for not showing up without notice, late/same, and this fits times I've met him in the house frustrated as he is there to meet a worker who is hours late. This weekend he said he plans to work on the upstairs floors / fixing, do closet poles and shelves, finish the bottom floor (which looks fine, but seems to have a lot of dust/imperfects in the finish), and oh god I forget what else. There still isn't hot water, though the thing seems hooked up now and has a power light, and the a/c remains off / not wired through the thermostat.
It's still taking a toll. I'm always having to figure out where I am
EVERY FUCKING DAY.
Where do I go to sleep? How do I get and park there? Do I need to pack work, social, and work clothes? What social plans do we have? Where do I get food for me, is it us, do I have to cook, where is the cooking, when do we meet and where... The amount of energy in clothes, gym workout, work location, and food is stunning. Add in the constant trickle of things I need to do for the house...and perhaps that explains some of my stress.
Perhaps I shouldn't be stressed. Perhaps this is easy and I'm spoiled. It's how I feel.
Gym / latest injury:
I'm recovering, but scared because I have another problem and still don't understand what went wrong in the first place. I've squatted 335 again (old rec 345), DL 405 for singles (old rec 445), and OP 135 (old rec 155 for 2). My bench...I did 155 for 2 the other day (old rec 235 for 2). I'm still doing rehab exercises but stopped the PT and traction. I should schedule the neurosurgeon but am freaked on the no-schedule stress.
So I'm recovering, but also have this problem with my shoulder where it is difficult/impinged when I lift my arm straight up. I discovered I have been compensating for this by flexing other muscles, which may create imbalances. So...I'm not working out as hard as I was, and need to do research, but...when? I can skate for a long time, just doing light and more varied work? I never did really do cardio, though I am standing most of every day.
Shit I also need to schedule an eye-doc appt. My rapid death is indicated by the disappearing things close to me.
So that's my life snapshot.
A distant friend (acquaintance?) noted that today everyone is an expert in the european union, while last week they were legal experts in rape and sexual assault charges, then parenting experts with regard to neglect, alligator risks, and zoo enclosures.
I got in a lot of trouble, including at home, pointing out the "rapist" was actually a sexual assaultist and addressing other details.
We're awash in instant strongly-held opinions based on headlines, devoid of context, details, and analysis. The analysis cycle is generally just digging up reasons to support your initial emotional impression, and outrage at people who voice other opinions. I'm guilty of this too:
I had a cousin who was instrumental in writing up the documents that made up the foundation of the EU. I barely remember him as I was a dumb and bad kid, but I remember him first as my funny cousin, then my nerdy cousin who confused me because I was so cool (a stoner, man) compared to him, finally seeing him discuss the legal and political complexities of the EU formation as his wife and he celebrated their first-born with family.
I keep lamenting family and not actually reaching out.
But my strongly held feelings on the UK and EU? They're really incomplete. I had an opportunity to really learn the workings of the EU, but did not. I don't understand it now except as general concepts - like most, I rely on my proven expert's opinions. I criticize this trend, but I also feel justified in relying on my experts - I've see Krugman argue his points so well, and cite data so often, I have a trust of his opinions. Others trust FOX, and I've seen repeatedly how that organization is caught lying and misleading. My behavior...is it really so different? I don't see successful attacks on Krugman (Mother Jones is a pile of crap, though) so is my reliance fair?
House: I'm tired of updating. Move in fine of $1k May 8 has been multiplied so many times I'm nervous. It's another $500 / wk since June 1. I'm worried about the low balance, though he does keep working - It. Is. Still. A. Trickle. The kitchen is mostly done except counters, and I can't shop for granite until he gets the measurements. FIOS got hooked up Thur in my empty house, so now my home phone doesn't work here. Jordan says he fired another employee this past week for not showing up without notice, late/same, and this fits times I've met him in the house frustrated as he is there to meet a worker who is hours late. This weekend he said he plans to work on the upstairs floors / fixing, do closet poles and shelves, finish the bottom floor (which looks fine, but seems to have a lot of dust/imperfects in the finish), and oh god I forget what else. There still isn't hot water, though the thing seems hooked up now and has a power light, and the a/c remains off / not wired through the thermostat.
It's still taking a toll. I'm always having to figure out where I am
EVERY FUCKING DAY.
Where do I go to sleep? How do I get and park there? Do I need to pack work, social, and work clothes? What social plans do we have? Where do I get food for me, is it us, do I have to cook, where is the cooking, when do we meet and where... The amount of energy in clothes, gym workout, work location, and food is stunning. Add in the constant trickle of things I need to do for the house...and perhaps that explains some of my stress.
Perhaps I shouldn't be stressed. Perhaps this is easy and I'm spoiled. It's how I feel.
Gym / latest injury:
I'm recovering, but scared because I have another problem and still don't understand what went wrong in the first place. I've squatted 335 again (old rec 345), DL 405 for singles (old rec 445), and OP 135 (old rec 155 for 2). My bench...I did 155 for 2 the other day (old rec 235 for 2). I'm still doing rehab exercises but stopped the PT and traction. I should schedule the neurosurgeon but am freaked on the no-schedule stress.
So I'm recovering, but also have this problem with my shoulder where it is difficult/impinged when I lift my arm straight up. I discovered I have been compensating for this by flexing other muscles, which may create imbalances. So...I'm not working out as hard as I was, and need to do research, but...when? I can skate for a long time, just doing light and more varied work? I never did really do cardio, though I am standing most of every day.
Shit I also need to schedule an eye-doc appt. My rapid death is indicated by the disappearing things close to me.
So that's my life snapshot.