back to school tomorrow
today i went on that Chicago Neghborhood Tour food sampling thing. it was ok. food wasnt great. but i still had fun. with jason, BW, and gazelle :) we were on the bus most of the time and they can get pretty crazy sometimes so it was interesting. i met this guy, wow it just occurred to me i dont even know what his name was! lol. well, he was with us, he's a junior at Lewis, he was pretty cool. we started talking at the japanese restaurant we went to and then later when i was waiting for my parents to pick me up he hung out in subway and waited with me :) he was cute.
adam and i went to applebee's tonight for dinner so i could see tony again before i go back to school :) tony rocks. mike was working too. he must have commented on how good my hair looked about 50 times lol. oh yeah i dyed it again.. pretty much the same color as last time.. a lot of people there complemented me on it :) so thats cool. i bitched mike out for not calling me like he said he was going to. he never does. and we discussed how he has in the past few months kind of turned into a cocky asshole. well, at least he recognizes it and can admit it. he's still cool though. the only thing he gives me shit about is smoking pot so i can deal with it.
i think my mood swings are starting to slightly come back. lately i've been suddenly getting in these moods where i am really irritated by everything around me... which was one of my mood swings that i used to go thru before i was on the meds. it sucks. and one person that ESPECIALLY irritates me is adam! omg. sometimes, when im in that mood, i just want to punch him and be like shut the hell up, your fucking stupid!! i have had the urge to do it so many times. its bad but i cant help it. he can be so fucking annoying. and im not the type of person to get irritated easily. its just when im in that mood. i could feel the depression creeping its way back in a few times in the past couple weeks too. not nearly as severe as it used to be... but its worrying me alittle bit. and also pissing me off a little bit too! its like i am finally off the medication, way later than i should have been, and now its just going to come back again! fuck no! thats not fair..... lol.
i just cant wait to go back to school. tomorrow! sweet..
off to bed now