TRANSLATION: TV GUIDE 04/23/2021 (Kyomoto Taiga)
A visual series materialization of SixTONES' project proposals.
The 19th theme is ENTERTAINMENT. The members who chose the road of entertainment talks about their relationship with the entertainment.
Music, movies, dramas, manga to anime... since I am somehow or the other enjoying a lifestyle through entertainment since I was a kid, so I realized that entertainment is absolutely a necessity in my life before I knew it. Like me, aren't there are a lot of people who don't know what they will do if there is no entertainment?
Even as an adult, I have been saved by entertainment a lot of times. I feel depressed easily, but more than listening to cheerful songs during those times, on the contrary, I am saved by listening to gloomy songs that are close to my feelings during those times and I think my feelings get better. Depending on the music that I choose, I may know my state of mind at that time. Like, when I play this song, then I am really feeling this way now...In movies too, of course I also watch the funny ones, but I like bad ending more than good ending. I like movies like 「Joker」(2019) that does not only end beautifully or impressively. The lyrics of the songs I made before debut have helpless endings, probably that kind of thing really matches with my personality, right?
As an entertainer, this is not as grand as with the entertainment industry, but looking back, the broadcasting club in my school days is the root where I knew the joy of doing something in front of the people. Around 1 to 2 years before entering Johnny's, my friend invited me to join the club so I did the activities in the broadcasting club for a year. One of the club activities was for everyone to make a video that will be played in morning assembly, it would be projected in the screen in front of the blackboard. There were also weeks where the films that we took were played in all of the classrooms. We did such things as filming a video where everyone made a dish, when I think about it now, we did things like what YouTubers do (LOL).
Since I was in the clubroom when the films were being played, I didn't know if laughter broke out or was it being dissed, I wonder if there were reactions to the films we made. Even in 「Nobuta wo Produce」(2005), there was an episode where Horikita Maki-san played as a reporter for broadcasting club. The duty of thinking about the projects was not my role, and I had been telling the line "maji no suke?" from the drama Nobuta wo Produce during our content filmings. I didn't realize it but maybe from that time I already have a soul of a Johnny's (LOL).
Until now I haven't found my own answer regarding why I am continuing in entertainment industry. At the moment, in one way or another, the feeling to keep doing it is closer. It is a highly competitive world where anyone can take my place, it is where when the balance between supply and demand collapse, a good reaction won't come back. While I am trying to constantly have a strict way of thinking like that, I at least think that I must be in demand for the people who are supporting me. Since there are people like that, I can continue to be in this industry, and there are much more things that I want to do. I am certain that the existence of people who demands for me together with my dream is the driving force. This may be a dry way of saying it but since I don't know what my 5 years after self or 10 years after self will be thinking, so I cannot completely say that I will be continue doing this work for my whole life. But currently, doing this work, I want to be here, there is no doubt that I must be in this industry. Since this is my everything.
As an artist, as an idol, as an individual person, and as a group, I think I haven't done yet 90% of what I am aiming to do. Of course in any industry, it is impossible for me to be 100 percent satisfied in things that I do. After realizing that, It would be great if the things that I can do realistically with great effort without giving up could be granted one by one. There are also timings and luck in doing musical jobs, there are roles that I can't do anymore when I grow old. Honestly, there is a role that I want to do until now but I cannot. I may look young that my age is being confirmed in convenience stores and mobile shops, but there are restrictions in roles no matter what. As much as possible, I positively seize different experiences. When the thing that I wanted to do is fulfilled, there's a chance that a different goal that I want to achieve will be born again, and I think a feeling that I haven't never tasted before will be felt at the end of the race. Since that is something that no one knows, the entertainment industry is interesting, isn't it?
Notes:
-Scans not mine
-Neither English nor Japanese native speaker
-Pls. feel free to correct me, thanks
-proofread by ryomerisu