Walter Post, obscure date 1974
fired today. kept taking wrong measurements, coming in late. read the paper and felt strangely doomed. took to the street to try and spread the word. saw daniel, saw people i know from a distance and cant talk to becauseof my face and the distance and something greater. makes me sad, sometimes, because i rather like daniel and i want to talk to him but i cant. sometimes write journal entries, but he tears them out later, and i find them in the street or the gutters or the trash or under all the dirty dishes. sometimes he burns them.
gets harder to think coherently because i never see things anymore because im sleeping all the time, because he stays out all night. i cant think straight anymore. get distracted when im talking to people. and god im tired. i was never this tired when i patrolled too. i get lost in my head and when i come out again im exhausted and bloody. had to go to the hospital last week, and im still not healed because he doesnt listen to doctors. i hate doctors. sometimes he listens to daniel, because i ask him to over and over and over and over and over. i think sometimes he likes daniel too, but he says he only does it because i annoy him so much.
i keep coming home in blood. i wipe it off but i cant turn on the water so it just stays there and stains like everything else. daniel is getting worse at stopping it from happening or maybe they work together less or maybe something else is happening that i dont know about, because i dont know a lto of things anymore.
when i go to sleep i dont want to wake up anymore.
gets harder to think coherently because i never see things anymore because im sleeping all the time, because he stays out all night. i cant think straight anymore. get distracted when im talking to people. and god im tired. i was never this tired when i patrolled too. i get lost in my head and when i come out again im exhausted and bloody. had to go to the hospital last week, and im still not healed because he doesnt listen to doctors. i hate doctors. sometimes he listens to daniel, because i ask him to over and over and over and over and over. i think sometimes he likes daniel too, but he says he only does it because i annoy him so much.
i keep coming home in blood. i wipe it off but i cant turn on the water so it just stays there and stains like everything else. daniel is getting worse at stopping it from happening or maybe they work together less or maybe something else is happening that i dont know about, because i dont know a lto of things anymore.
when i go to sleep i dont want to wake up anymore.