its not up to you
well i wish i could continue living in fantasy land
fantasy island
i've been cleaning the kitchen and bathroom
and bennnnnnnnn now is listening to his friend's radio show
and for some reason it is making me discouraged
this is whats going on:
a couple of days after getting back from florida ben put on a show @ the basement.
we left early because we weren't feeling so well.
so we get home and after dinner he asks what i want to do when the lease is up
i said i enjoy living with him but we have some time to think about this, whether or not we want to continue living in the same place together or apart. so i asked him how he felt and after a little coaxing he said that he would rather live apart and with eli (his friend with the radio show)
i felt slighted but tried not to let on till later and asked why he didn't want to live with me while we were in bed, he said he was immature and selfish (so where does that leave me???)
so a couple days, a week goes by and we eat some shrooms. as we are walking home from hanging out with his friends.
I told him I had no idea how he felt about me.
I guess he kept thinking about it and it seemed as though the whole thing was going to end. I was thinking about where I could live what I could do, how i could move my stuff, about working together and it was driving me crazy. we talked about it one night and spent hours crying.
the next day he said maybe we should stay together ... but he wasn't sure.
so it has been about a week and a half since then and it seems as though we are both really trying.
and apparently we have both said that its "one day at a time" to the same friend.
I told this to another friend and he made the comment that his mother is dying of cancer and thats something you say one day at a time to, i said that it was like being kicked in the balls one day at a time.
so hearing ben listen to his friend's radioshow, which he isn't doing anymore, for reasons i'm not sure of, and his having not listened to this show in months and then out of the blue listening to it is like in the aqua teen hunger force episode when they found a mummy and when ever he didn't get his way he would say "cuuuurse, curse!"
but gentle men don't seem to realise much of what they do anyway.
fantasy island
i've been cleaning the kitchen and bathroom
and bennnnnnnnn now is listening to his friend's radio show
and for some reason it is making me discouraged
this is whats going on:
a couple of days after getting back from florida ben put on a show @ the basement.
we left early because we weren't feeling so well.
so we get home and after dinner he asks what i want to do when the lease is up
i said i enjoy living with him but we have some time to think about this, whether or not we want to continue living in the same place together or apart. so i asked him how he felt and after a little coaxing he said that he would rather live apart and with eli (his friend with the radio show)
i felt slighted but tried not to let on till later and asked why he didn't want to live with me while we were in bed, he said he was immature and selfish (so where does that leave me???)
so a couple days, a week goes by and we eat some shrooms. as we are walking home from hanging out with his friends.
I told him I had no idea how he felt about me.
I guess he kept thinking about it and it seemed as though the whole thing was going to end. I was thinking about where I could live what I could do, how i could move my stuff, about working together and it was driving me crazy. we talked about it one night and spent hours crying.
the next day he said maybe we should stay together ... but he wasn't sure.
so it has been about a week and a half since then and it seems as though we are both really trying.
and apparently we have both said that its "one day at a time" to the same friend.
I told this to another friend and he made the comment that his mother is dying of cancer and thats something you say one day at a time to, i said that it was like being kicked in the balls one day at a time.
so hearing ben listen to his friend's radioshow, which he isn't doing anymore, for reasons i'm not sure of, and his having not listened to this show in months and then out of the blue listening to it is like in the aqua teen hunger force episode when they found a mummy and when ever he didn't get his way he would say "cuuuurse, curse!"
but gentle men don't seem to realise much of what they do anyway.