First Do No Harm
The world is lucky that I'm not a physician. I just can't seem to understand myself sometimes.
Why do I feel so stupid.
Why do I feel like such an idiot.
Yes, I know that I didn't end those sentences with a question mark.
Thy just don't seem like real questions anymore. The more I keep saying those words over and over the less and less are they really put out there like I'm questioning.
So, instead of just leaving things alone and enjoying my life, I go out and stir my emotional shit.
I slept after crying so hard last night - my eyes are all puffy and red today. My husband doesn't know what to do with me except hold me and tell me that he loves me and that I'm not stupid or an idiot. He says I just have issues that I've been ignoring for 15 years.
Well, he's right.
Dammit all to hell, I have been avoiding this for that long.
I don't want to do this. I really wish I could just put this back into the box its been in for so long.
Argh. I'm so so stupid.
Why do I feel so stupid.
Why do I feel like such an idiot.
Yes, I know that I didn't end those sentences with a question mark.
Thy just don't seem like real questions anymore. The more I keep saying those words over and over the less and less are they really put out there like I'm questioning.
So, instead of just leaving things alone and enjoying my life, I go out and stir my emotional shit.
I slept after crying so hard last night - my eyes are all puffy and red today. My husband doesn't know what to do with me except hold me and tell me that he loves me and that I'm not stupid or an idiot. He says I just have issues that I've been ignoring for 15 years.
Well, he's right.
Dammit all to hell, I have been avoiding this for that long.
I don't want to do this. I really wish I could just put this back into the box its been in for so long.
Argh. I'm so so stupid.