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i'm not sure what to think of my boring moods. lately all i look forward to at the end of the day is going to bed. i think i just do too much during the day leaving myself completely drained. i'm working and going to school every day except sundays. so all i do on sundays is lay around and do homework. i barely have the energy to take mona for a walk. i know that's not fair. i keep giving up on things like my halloween costume, or anything having to do with halloween for that matter. i miss my friends. i miss everyone so much and i realize that being a homebody is going to make me wish i had gone out and had some fun. good things are happening too though. i was told by the sales rep for casablanca (a bridal manufacture we carry at ferndales) that he had a job ready for me after i get my AA & fashion merchandising certificate next semester. this makes me happy. what doesn't make me happy is that instead i spend my time stressing out about school and wondering how i'll ever fill the position he's willing to give me (southern cali sales rep). i keep stressing out and end up waisting $20 to talk to my therapist about my sister's wedding that's coming up next weekend. why not talk about the fact that i sleep 10 hours a night? instead i vent about my sister's bridal procrastination. i need money.